The Couch Potato's Life

Disappointment hits hard, right in the core of the soul.

2009-08-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

What a somewhat uneventful day today.

Had a gay argument with Ganesh over some part-time job stuff.

Partly my fault because I don't like working in that line.

The customers at the Hello Kitty Store was bad experience enough, if you know what I was saying.

Then, as me and Taibo were walking around, we tend to notice people staring at us like as if they are going to kill us.

Doesn't feel weird?

It does when a guy on a bike with a black shirt sticks up the middle finger at you for no apparent reason.

Then comes the disappointment of the day.

I finally finished my checkup.

The doctor says I have Chronic Glomerulonephritis, or Chronic GN for short.

From what I read on wikipedia, its not really that dangerous.

Then again, I read from this other website, it says this:

Chronic GN is the terminal stage of the disease, and it is one of the important causes of chronic renal failure. And, interestingly, the patient may directly /suddenly report to the physician with the symptoms of chronic GN, without passing through either the acute/subacute phase of the disease. Further, most of the time, a previous history of sore throat may also not be available. Therefore, the occult nature of the disease is clear both in the subacute and chronic stages of this ailment.

Seriously, I'm lost.

It says "Terminal Stage", which somewhat means "near the end".

HAH!

But if something happens, I might have kidney failure.

That's something to be sad about now.

Because of this, I can't find a girlfriend that easily now.

Ahh, that sucks.

Well, somewhat a shotgun to the chest.

Then after I read my letter from SAF in my letterbox, it was another shotgun to the head.

I'm certified PES E9/L9.

Simply put, I'm certified 1 PES level higher than F, which is exemption from the army.

After training so hard for a gold in my NAPFA, I'm still getting this.

Perhaps someone out there thinks I'm probably emo-ing now, thinking who's going to miss me when I die or stuff like that.

As much as I want to emo...

Sorry, I stopped emo-ing ever since Secondary school.

Feeling sad is definitely something I'm experiencing now.

Other than expecting people to say stuff like:

"HAHA! Weak shit. Can't even go shoot water in CD."

"Eh, lousy leh. Blood from your penis. Then become clerk."

And all those other looking-down quotes.

I guess I've learnt a lot from my mother then.

I have to learn to accept that I cannot do anything because of this.

Yes, my urine has red blood cells detected in it. But the problem lies in my kidney.

And its not my choice to become a clerk.

I want to hold a SAR21.

I want to fire live rounds.

I want to be an officer, because I told someone I will become one for that person if I can.

All those seems bleak now.

I may not be as well off as everyone around.

I don't even have the chance to do what some people can do.

But I know as long as I try my dang best to do what I can for what I want,

I'd have done it with no regrets.

After so long, everything is beginning to change.

2009-08-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

Its been 3 months since the last post.

A single blink of an eye, its August already.

And its been nearly 8 months since I made my NS checkup. Gonna have to wait till tomorrow where my checkup would be finished at TTSH.

Seriously hope I can get in around October. I'm practically wasting time sitting and idling around at home or at the mall.

Not to mention, I'll come out early if I enter early.

And better still, I hope I get into the ARMY instead of Police or Civil Defence.

The way how the government handles stuff with NS anyway, will always piss someone off.

Nuff talk about the army.

Let's see..

The last post was during the graduation.

Still got the pictures. Don't think I'm going to upload them here though. Sorry bout that.

Its on my Facebook. You can take a look there.

Right after graduation, I finished my part-time job for like half a month.

Dang lazy of me to work.

I focused on my driving lessons fully.

1 month of pure driving lessons almost 3-4 times per week.

Then, after that chapter, I started to see people going missing.

Other than the closest people around me going army, some were already in the workforce.

Everyday for them was this one word.

"Busy"

Don't like the idea of visiting them at work, nor calling them.

I fear I might disrupt their work, or cause them trouble. Heh.

Spent 2 weeks playing games and I felt distracted, which is somewhat good in some ways.

After so long, I felt that I should really start working out.

Since I'm not working, might as well prepare myself.

For something.

Army? My future?

Its been like 4-5 days since I've been doing exercises late in the night where its cooler.

Now the whole body's sore.

Not to mention, I'm rushing exercises, might injure some parts of my body if I don't do it correctly.

Starting to see a slight change. Maybe a slight light line coming out.

Currently stopping exercises for a while to let the sore muscles heal before I begin again.

I'm definitely happy and relieved for the peeps around me.

Haziq is gonna finish his SISPEC soon. Maybe even going for ASLC.

Ganesh is going to Korea for the World Taekwondo Hanmadang Competition.

Hopefully, he sets up something there in motion for our trip in 2 years to come.

JS is in army. Doing well, which is definitely good to hear.

Joni is... continuing studies? Ahh, he's fine.

Chun is gonna go in army in another 2 months time.

Eileen is working. She seems somewhat happy working. And she got in a university. Definitely great.

I wonder what the rest like Kevin and Huihui are doing though. Didn't really find out.

Sometimes, I feel...

Oh wait, I HAVE no one to talk about things that exists or linger in my mind.

The only thing that listens is this blog. Its where I can type out everything I want to let out.

And the blog listens. Shows. Publishes.

Most on the fact that the stuff I talk about are more towards what is happening to the planet.

Stuff that Ganesh talks are mostly business-minded.

Stuff that Joel talks are army-minded.

While the rest have topics way far off than me.

I'm on Uranus while they are at Earth.

Everyone says from the looks of it, I'm not even gonna get a girlfriend even at the age of 30.

Ganesh keeps saying my girlfriend has got to be some hot model because my standards are set way too high.

Though I somehow feel my standards aren't really that high.

People keep telling me this.

"You don't need to find one to be forever with. Its just for experience."

Or something across that line if you understand what it means.

Summarized, it means "Playing around".

But this question that I've always held in my mind stands up to this.

"How would the other party feel when he/she has really loved you so?"

Sure, both men and perhaps even women play around.

But when you put yourself in the losing end, how would you feel if someone plays with you?

I've been a bit angry and frustrated at how people are mocking me.

Telling me all the excuses I've been saying to evade questions.

And its somewhat true, I agree.

Its all excuses to evade the questions.

Then they start making fun of how the excuses I make relate to them.

Which the event has never happened to them before.

I get angry, yet I can't do anything but to place it and fill it up into a large mentally created bottle.

It overflows everytime, but I just cannot do anything.

Except to clean up the mess that I've created.

Some keep saying of how my body looks like a block of wood.

Static and unchanged.

It sounds somewhat funny, but its a bit offensive when its overdone.

But I can't do anything about it.

Because when I think about it seriously, its the truth.

I lack the courage to do everything. That, which includes talking.

Not just to women, but also to everyone.

I don't want to say something wrong, and lose a friend I've known for so long.

Its not that I don't want to try, but I don't like the idea of failing again.

It takes quite some time for me to stand up once I fall down.

Graduation! The Wonderful 3 Years with EI0603.

2009-05-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

Alright. Having some free time now.

Okay, maybe a lot of free time.

Anyhoo, it was my Graduation Ceremony a few days back.

Got some pictures to upload. Finally some pictures here, Peilin.

Well... I'm not gonna upload any pics until I get the whole lot of it. So, be patient.

And I'm somewhat a bastard to ask people to take photos, and I don't have a camera myself.

Sorry lah.... No money buy good camera. Unless someone wants to buy me a Canon D40, I don't mind.

Gotta love those manual zoom digital cameras. Just love em.

And I just found out. Currently, I only have 12 pictures for Graduation.

Oh, that sucks.

Whereas Kenneth has around 30++ of it.

Blame myself. Lol.

Gotta bring my family around the school. This is like the first time they've been there.

Did I mention that it was also the first time they've seen my poly friends?

I'll miss poly life. Definitely.

You know.

Somehow, I feel that I've learnt so much about people around.

I've learnt, seen and felt how it feels like to place oneself in another's shoe.

I've learnt how to care and worry for people.

I've learnt to help people, even to the point of somewhat, destroying my mind and body.

In fact, I feel that 2 months of rest is not enough to recover the energy I've lost in the past 3 years.

I still feel tired and I want to rest more.

But something, or perhaps someone is hinting me this.

There's no stopping. In the end, I still need to move on.

Yet, after learning all these in the past 20 years, I haven't learnt the few most important things perhaps I might need in the next 40-50 years to come.

I don't know about myself.

I don't know about the feelings that I show and exude to people.

I don't know how to help and think about myself.

I might be able to care and worry for people, but I can't really love another person.

Not probably again after all the failures which didn't even make it to the beginning.

Its the big 2-0 in another 3 months time.

The next decade begins from then.

What do I do?

Some scientific knowledge from my memory, for sharing.

2009-04-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

Ahh... The dead blog.

Heh. Bored for now, so I'll revive it for a bit.

I'm not sure to people, but somehow to me, I feel that I'm speaking too much when I'm talking about scientific knowledge about the world.

Specifically, The World and the Outer Space.

I should say, I'm really not boasting when I do that. Its just sharing some knowledge around.

But if you take it that way, I'm really sorry. But no offence, seriously.

Its just knowledge I learnt from 3 years of reading in news and Wikipedia.

Sooo... Here we go!

Firstly, Global Warming.

Been a bit hot lately in Singapore isn't it?

Well, perhaps it doesn't really apply only to Singapore. The highest temperature I saw in Korea was 20 degrees.

For a country that has degrees which could go as low as 5 degrees, 20 degrees is somewhat hot over there.

We can definitely feel it. The burning temperature of 34 degrees in Singapore.

Which I think is mostly attributed to the season of Summer in this period of the year.

So, its not really a big problem now. But if it stays like that till October or December, there's something to worry about.

Anyhoo, back to the main topic.

On the Global Warming, of course.

Surely you guys know about how it affects the temperature. We shall skip that.

Did you know an Ice shelf broke off in the Arctic?

An ice shelf is a large floating platform of ice on the Arctic. Think of it as a floating island made out of ice. The sizes of ice shelves that break off from a whole platform can be as big as the size of Rhode Island.

How does this affect us?

Well, the ice shelf won't really melt. Its not on the ice part. Instead, the ice in the arctic reflects light back to outer space, which is somewhat beneficial.

But when an ice shelf breaks, there is a space of water created between the ice shelves. Heat from the sun is allowed to warm up the areas of water between the ice shelves. Instead of heat from the sun, the heat from the water, melts the ice faster.

This in turn, dumps more water into the ocean. Even though salt water is more dense than pure water in ice, the water still has to end up somewhere right?

This dumping of water, increases the sea levels. Slowly, but surely it will rise. By 1mm, then 5mm. Then long enough, it becomes 1cm to maybe 3 or 4cm.

Imagine sea levels to rise to the length of your handphone, or maybe your wallet.

Next up, just a piece of news.

The glaciers, or caps of ice on the Himalayas, is expected to melt completely by the year 2036. I'd be around 47 years old by then.

Instead of just ice shelves, glaciers also contribute to the rise in sea levels.

Mehh, next up. Tsunamis.

No seriously, its really hard to see a wave so high up formed through natural means. Like maybe 100 feet in the air?

The concept of waves is that each time, the gravity from the moon, pulls the waves up. Then as the moon moves, the gravity "disappears" and the waves come down again.

In a tsunami instead, it is caused by earthquakes or erupting undersea volcanoes.

How?

Imagine yourself placing your hands together under the surface of the water in a tub. Then, you open your hands slowly while maintaining the hands under the surface. You should see the water rushing in to fill in the space you created for about 2 seconds with your hands. The water that fills in clashes with water coming in from the other side, creating a big ripple.

On the tub, it looks like a small ripple. On Earth, that ripple is worth about 5 storeys high.

Another scenario.

In an earthquake, the crusts can slip beside each other, or one side of the crust can rise while the other goes downwards. Now, imagine you have a hand underneath the water in a tub. Raise your hand slowly up to the surface and you can see a small gush of water coming upwards to the surface. This is called water displacement. The water gushing upwards is displaced to the surrounding areas where the crusts are at the same level instead of the crust that has risen due to the earthquake.

Due to water displacement, the excess amount of water will travel to cover up the other areas of water that are not on the same water level. Upon travelling, the speed of the water travelling creates waves. The further it travels, the bigger the wave. Water is taken in to flow with the wave. Which is why you have your receding shoreline minutes before the big wave crashes.

Undersea volcanoes work the same way to cause tsunamis. Volcanoes erupt sometimes due to water that enter the volcanic lava within a volcano.

What happens when water boils?

Bubbles and steam are created, which rises and brings up lava. The amount of steam and bubbles creates the eruptions.

In an earthquake, the eruptions somewhat create a displacement of the water in the ocean due to the eruption from the volcano.

Pretty cool?

Dunno about you guys, but its interesting to me.

I'm tired anyways. I'll continue about the outer space part sometime soon.

Nights!

Choices.

2009-04-03T14:07:00.000-07:00

Been long since I last posted.

Aishh... I should really post some pics up soon.

Maybe I'll get a few from Zeke soon...

Weather's been real hot and warmer recently. Top temperatures reaching 33 degrees and the lowest is 26 degrees.

I finally began driving lessons again. From my uncle. As in real uncle.

And I like his way of teaching. Hope I'll really get better.

Facebook Apps are the way to go when you're bored at home.

Either that, or some old school games like Starcraft with a few buddies can be a way to pass the time.

Anyhoo, I went to the club recently.

TO GET EXPERIENCE!

I didn't drink, but I was coerced to go into the dance floor to shake that stiff booty of mine.

Interesting place, but the bleddy speakers nearly made my eardrums burst. Somehow, I went home and could still feel the bass of the stereos lingering in my ears.

Oh well, at least I made friends with Joel's classmates.

And they're really nice people.

Totally way different from the others in the club.

Those in the club could only be described with 1 word.

"Wild."

Today, I went to Mummy's Office to help her pack her stuff on her desk before going to the new location of her office.

Ate with her before going to meet Ganesh, Naveen, Joel and his classmates for dinner.

And also to celebrate Keen Hong, one of Joel's classmates birthday.

Seriously, I should just type "my friend", instead of "Joel's classmates".

Anyone I know, is my friend mah!

Before we celebrated the "Surprise" birthday cake, we played a few games like "Mu Tou Ren/Wooden Dummy".

Ran like I've never did before.

And my calves feel the pinch of not training for a long time.

Then while we're resting, Me, Ganesh and Joel went to try out some flips and handstands.

I flew over Naveen's back, followed by Ganesh.

Then we cut the "Surprise" Birthday Cake and shared it among all of us, including the 2 security guards who lent us their lighter for the candles.

By the way, I said "Surprise" with double apostrophes because...

It was so bleddy obvious that there was a cake LAH!

But at least we celebrated!

With English, Chinese and Korean birthday songs!

After finishing the cake, we parted ways and took the train home.

I went to have some sort of a pep-talk with Joel, while Ganesh headed home.

Back to topic.

Its 5:22 am currently.

I feel damn tired. But I can't really sleep until I type this out.

This whole week, I feel that I've really learnt a lot of stuff.

Not only learnt, but also, I've seen a lot of stuff.

Saying it just like that doesn't really help I guess. I should describe it then.

Thursday, I went out for a short while with my Dad to get some A4 size paper for printing. After that, we went to have some drinks at the nearby coffeeshop. His buddies were there as usual. We sat at another table and just talked and joked as usual. I went off after finishing my drink and carried the ream of A4 papers home while my dad went to talk with his buddies.

During the conversation between my dad and me, I could see how he felt.

Joy.

Happiness.

One, because the both of us haven't had drinks together like that for a pretty long time. About a few months.

Two, we rarely talk and joke that much at home.

That expression on his face. I would never forget it.

Today, I went to meet my mum to help her pack her stuff on her workdesk as they were shifting to a new office. I enjoyed packing the stuff with her.

We jokingly scolded each other on how to place and arrange the stuff neatly into the boxes. How we slowly wrapped the computer with plastic. How she gave me tasks such as sealing the boxes which were done.

After packing, we went to have prata at a nearby stall near her office. There, we talked and talked as usual.

Oh, I communicate more to my mum than my dad.

I told her about my problem. She told me a sentence.

I'm not going to type out the whole sentence though. I'll encode it in another format.

She said something like this, "Would you rather let a person fall from a curb, or bring that person to the 12th storey to have a harder fall?"

After that, we walked back to the MRT station where I sent her off to the bus before taking the train to meet the guys.

When we reached Tampines, Ganesh went back while me and Joel went to the playground to talk.

I gave him my reason for choosing this.

Somehow, I get that feeling that the reason I gave would look like just any other reason all the other guys in the world would give just to escape from the problem.

But, this reason I gave, is the truth.

Nothing but only the truth.

One of the sentences I asked Joel was, "Would you rather act and not be yourself for your whole life, or just portray who you are, yourself?"

Then I jokingly added, "If you chose to act, before you die, do tell me. So I can give you an Oscar."

On the way back in the train, I was thinking even more harder than any other exam I have taken in my whole life.

Whether I should choose to do this or that.

I care about everyone.

Not only my family, but my friends.

I worry about how my mother can survive on just that little amount of money.

How my dad feels each time he is sick.

How my sister having not enough money.

I worry about what are the consequences of each and every action I do, every word I speak, everything I say to everyone.

Sometimes, I might make you mad.

Sometimes, I might just make you disappointed.

Even sometimes, I might make you feel sad or even cry.

Each and everytime, I really want to try my best to make everyone around me smile.

But when the problem doesn't leave me with an option, I'll choose the best choice not only for me, but for everyone.

After hearing something, this was what I replied:

Everyone was born great, to do great things. The only reason some of them aren't that great or are bad, is because of the choices that they made under some circumstances.

And for that choice, 제가저말미안해.

Lost.

2009-03-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

Back from Genting with my parents and some of the guys on last sunday.

And I've finally decided to blog now.

Not to mention the fact that I'm extremely bored.

And lost.

We'll talk on that later though.

Won't be uploading any pics for now until I've received some the whole 950 megs of pictures we took at Genting.

Haziq went in today at 1130 hours. Seeing from the way I typed the time, you can probably infer that he went in for NS today.

Yep, that's one of us inside now. Joel's gonna "really" start NS soon. Then two down.

Soon, we'll all be inside.

Of course, I can't control myself to say how NS wastes 2 years of every man's life.

Not really on the "waste" part. I mean, we'll learn military stuff like assembling a gun, operating military vehicles or stuff like that. And not to mention, it gives us harsh physical training.

Still, one of the reasons why we need NS is such that our country can be prepared for any sort of attacks from anywhere in the world.

Attacks meaning, war, terrorism, etc. You get the point.

But if we didn't have war or terrorism and stuff like that...

Would we still require NS?

Anyhoo, change of topic.

Ever since the end of Attachment, and the CCNA Bootcamp.

Which seriously taught me more than what I've learnt in Networking in the past 3 years.

And not forgetting that...

I've passed! And got 888/1000 for my score.

How lucky.

Ever since the end of school, I've been...

Staying at home. Playing Facebook Apps and looking at youtube videos.

Going out at night. Eating, walking around, doing nothing much.

Staying up late till 4:30 am to 5:30 am playing Left 4 Dead with Joni.

Yep, that's the life of a couch potato. Feel it. Kekekekeke!

JS is working.

Ganesh, Charles and Taibo are going to start work soon.

What am I doing?

Seriously, I myself don't really quite know.

After coming back from Genting, I feel somewhat, lost.

Something that feels like, you don't know what you want to do.

You don't know where to start.

You don't know where to begin.

And you start to feel that there's nothing much to do now.

Well, I got NS coming up.

So its like I have nothing to do until my enlistment letter comes.

But I want to do something for my future.

My dream, which I haven't forgotten so.

Its like embedded and imprinted onto my head, skull and brain.

So after a long thought, I was planning to clear my driving first.

Then I'll get a job to save some money.

But looking at conditions in Singapore, it looks hard to be a Singer.

Not that Singapore doesn't have its own talents.

But its hard to become one.

And seriously, I don't know how or where to begin.

No wonder there's no guidebook on how to be a Singer or an Actor.

Somehow, I feel Singapore's too restricted. Too small to have lots of Talent Agencies.

I swear I really know, if not a lot, then a few people around me who can really sing better than me.

But we're all stuck here on this island without anywhere to try and begin.

I guess for now, I'll just have to see as it goes along.

Oh and... I somehow feel, someone's guiding me to do stuff.

Well, not the stuff about me wanting to be a Singer, YET.

But stuff like when I said I wanted to learn Korean.

An application on a Mac Desktop in Korean language appeared while I was still doing attachment and the vendor asked me if I could read Korean.

Not really surprising, but I saw Koreans at the airport sky train.

I heard and saw a Korean family communicating while I was on my way back home in the train after my Certification exam.

Korean words are the first thing that catches my eye instead of English words.

The most recent one.

A Korean family was held up at the immigrations at Malaysia while we were on our way to Genting.

Its a sign.

The end of a chapter. The beginning of a new one.

2009-02-21T09:36:00.000-08:00

I really think I felt like an ass when I told myself,

"Okay, perhaps I'll do a post on Valentine's Day."

Which I didn't do in the end.

Then I also didn't write about the last day of my attachment.

And what I've felt all these while.

Lotsa stuff to write.

So in correct chronological order, beginning from the last day of my attachment.

Here we go!

Let's see...

The last day of attachment. Truthfully, I can't really say it was a sad day.

Neither can I say it was a happy day, since I've finished my Polytechnic life.

Well, almost.

I finished up the last of the report and handed it to the project manager. Really placed a lot of effort and concentration into doing that report, since I would not be involved in the project after that day.

After submitting the report, I went to double check on my own IPP report before I gave my supervisor, Glenn, for checking and marking.

Then, the three of us had some photo sessions in the cubicle for memories.

Then, we signed out, returned our passes and left the building.

Without looking back again.

Really, I'll never forget those people at NCS. Especially Glenn, Tom, Sze Hwee, Gerand and many more.

They provided a good experience on how working life would be in a working environment. Not to mention, they are good supervisors too.

They'll guide you, help you if you're stuck.

Really, I'm gonna miss that place. And the work there. Not to mention the place at B6 where I put my 20 and 50 cents into a machine. =X

14th February.

1 day right after the last day of my attachment.

Comes this day, which I've spent alone for the past 7 years.

Correction.

Without a companion.

A partner.

And its the same for this year again.

By the way, we went to a the pub Eskibar on the 13th. Sudden decision made by Ganesh.

And I spent 22 bucks on that Golden Coke.

But, I didn't take any alcohol at all. And I'm really happy to be able to keep my promise till now.

Not to mention the real and extreme urge to even know how Absolut Vodka, or Barcardi, or even Chivas Regal tastes like.

I can only smell them. But I really don't know what's the taste.

Reached home at around 4 am?

And literally collapsed on the bed till the next day at 3pm. Which was Valentine's Day.

Went out around 5-6pm in the evening to walk in the mall for awhile.

Really, nothing much to do. All I see are couples, flowers, balloons and more couples.

But, sometimes.

The look on the faces of couples really show some interesting things.

Went back home after.

And slayed like 500-600 zombies.

So I can officially say,

"I spent the Year 2009's Valentine's Day doing nothing and slaying 500-600 zombies."

Ah well...

Back to present day, or today.

Went out to meet Lustre.

No seriously, some of my guys are gonna laugh at me for doing this.

But mehh... They're my friends. Whether in-game or not, I've known them for nearly a year.

And they're really good people.

Interesting.

Funny.

Communicable. One of them just needs some practice though.

Still, I have expanded my social circle.

Overall, I'm glad to have known more people.

Oh and did I mention, while we were taking the group photo, people were like staring at us.

I felt like an exchange student.

(!-_-)

But still, it was a pretty good lunch with them.

Other than the fact that I'm not eating any sushi or japanese cuisine for the next 2 months.

Keke! Might be looking forward to the next outing.

Heh.

3:08 am already.

Time to sleep. Gotta study tomorrow.

Still, can't forget what thoughts I have in mind.

Up till now, I wonder how does one find someone suitable for you.

Other than just knowing the person for a long time, there are those who click exceptionally well.

I'm revealing my weakness on not being able to look directly at their face and talk to girls.

Can't really bring out any communcative speeches.

Only those single-answer-yielding questions.

I need to talk more.

The End of Poly Life Nears.

2009-02-03T09:03:00.000-08:00

Another 7 days more.

And its time to say goodbye. To some of the other people I've known during FYP and IPP.

And just today, I make a new friend.

All thanks to Zhiyang again.

Seriously, can't say anything better than the word "Thanks".

For introducing me to so many friends from SIT Club.

Well, except for something much better than "Thanks" in English.

고맙습니다.
Komapsumnida.

Or perhaps the other one most people know.

감사합니다
Kamsahamnida.

Anyway, met JS and Joni, along with 3 other of their FYP labmates.

Tobias, Alyssa and Jolyn.

Seriously, I know all of their names.

And I sometimes communicate to Alyssa, but not that much.

Because she says Joni everytime talks about me.

I got that much to talk about meh?

Hah.

Man, I seriously think, I gotta get to know them better before finishing Poly.

Seems hard, with only 7 days left.

I'll try return to school more often then.

Eileen ah...

Stop saying you're fat, when you're not.

Don't know whether you're reading this.

Your arm might have flabs, but your wrist is half of my arm itself.

And that, definitely is how skinny a girl should be.

Enough of fats.

What matters most is being healthy and happy right?

Why stress yourself with matters that are not so important?

Pimple Outbreak on my face.

My god, I look like some freak now.

Damn the construction at the field in front of my block.

Apparently, it has caused the pimple outbreak on my face.

How, you might ask.

I live on the 9th floor.

When construction begins, dust from there is created.

As you should know, the winds around Singapore are getting stronger and more frequent.

So the dust rises to the higher levels, and the wind blows in the direction towards my block.

And my window is always left open.

Right now, I'm experimenting to close the window for a week and see what happens.

And by the way, my mum went in my room for 2 hours to play my psp.

She got 5 pimples the next day.

Sometimes, I feel I'm invisible to the world.

Transparent.

And its not a bad thing. Well.. not really.

I had my lonely meal again since around the past 7 years when I had it last.

Went to Food Culture at Century Square to eat something before taking my meds.

Alone, that is.

I look around me.

I see families.

Couples.

Friends.

I'm not emo-ing by the way.

Just that, I look at their faces and its pretty interesting to see in their faces and eyes.

Some of them smile.

Some of them laugh.

Some hug each other lovingly.

And to me, time just slows down when this happens.

And, the smile naturally just comes on my face for no reason.

Talking about smiles.

I finished setting up the wireless connection at the mac room at Tampines ITE.

And when the vendor taught the teacher to configure it.

She began configuring it for each of the PCs for the students.

Some of them were smiling.

Some were saying, "Eh, Ada internet sial!"

Blog hopping as usual when I'm bored.

Some guys never update one. Nothing to read.

Eileen never update. Must be due to FYP presentation coming up.

Zhiyang stopped updating for now. Must be due to report and work in office.

I guess most of us really has no time now.

ALAMAK!

I'm going to spend the coming Valentine's day alone again.

(!-_-)

Oh well.

Luckily, I've tasked myself with stuff to do in preparation for that day.

Learn more lyrics on love and ballad songs.

Like, Endless love.

Kekekekekeke!

Experiencing, Seeing new things every day.

2009-01-30T10:49:00.000-08:00

Short post. Because its late.

Sick.

Like literally.

Down with sore throat, cough, a bit of flu and a slight headache.

Been sleeping late like times around now, which is like... 2:50 am?

Serves me right.

ANYHOO!

Today's newspaper is something that really shows something.

There's a malay boy, singing chinese songs on Campus Superstar.

The catch?

He has no education in chinese whatsoever.

DAMN!

Goes to show, as long as you believe you can do it, you will do it.

And he's really doing it.

And now, I can confirm and safely say what I want to be when I finish army.

I want to try to be a singer.
Not just any singer.
A singer, who can sing very well.
In multiple languages.
English songs.
Chinese songs.
Maybe malay songs?
Heck, I'll most probably wanna do Korean songs.
And perhaps Japanese songs.

I want to be, who I want to be.

2009-01-22T23:19:00.000-08:00

Its currently 3:19 p.m in the office.

And I'm supposed to leave at 3 p.m.

Cos its half day.

Just doing updates on my Gantt chart and IPP report.

Thought I would post before I go home. Which I know I won't post at all.

Heh.

15 Days left!

If you exclude the weekends.

But not the holidays.

Minus Chinese New Year, it should be around 13 days.

Sigh.

Oh take a look at this.

I thought of it while thinking of how to write the word "Sigh"

There's the emo version, "Haiz..."

There's the cute version, "Hais..."

And the more neutral version which I always use,"Sigh."

Okay, that's crap.

Nothing to do, nothing to do.

How I wish I had like 50 grand or a 100 grand to embark on my journey to be able to sing well.

No money, no talk.

Everything revolves around money.

Go out, need money.

Go eat, need money.

Go have fun, also need money.

Go toilet, sometimes also must pay money.

Luckily, there's not much 10 cent toilets around anymore.

Well, I'm currently listening to....

K.Will Feat. MC 몽 - 러브119

The "러브" is pronounced "ro-beu", which is actually pronounced, Love in English.

But just translated to Korean Syllables.

Everyone knows "Love" in korean is spelled "사랑".

Or "sa-rang".

Nul sarang hae~

Shibnyeoni jinado~

Geudeh bameul, bichoneun juh byeolcheoreom~

Ah well, you'll hear that in the last chorus of Love 119.

Anyways, to all the readers out there.

恭喜发财, 新年快乐!

Sleepy at work. Bored at home.

2009-01-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD!

Its getting boring at home.

Not that I can even say that.

I can go find a job and work on weekends though.

But I'm just afraid it will suck my energy all away.

So I'm waiting for Poly to end before getting some nice, soft and smooth stacks of dough.

For those that don't really get it, but I think you guys know what it is.

I'm talking about money.

Dough doesn't come in stacks. It comes with the combination of water, eggs and flour.

Damn.

I hate that feeling.

The feeling of wanting to do something for your future, but you gotta wait for something to pass before you can begin.

And its 2 years.

MY GOD.

Luckily, I'm a patient guy.

I've learnt a lot these few days as compared to what I learnt in a week when I have nothing to do.

Seriously, work is fun when you got things to do.

Even though I feel sleepy and my eyes are half closed, I could still assemble wireless network cards into the CPU with full focus.

Because something is occupying my mind so that I don't think of other things.

Normal things like :

Got enough money to spend?
Got enough rest?
Taekwondo?
New clothing?
Some time to R&R? Otherwise known to me as Rest & Relax.
Logbook got write stuff?
IPP and Report. Left how many weeks?
Countdown to end of IPP?
Work at what time?
Must wake up what time?
Cisco CCNA Certification?
How much? 150++ bucks?!
Money?
How long till army?
How long till army ends?

We also have the really, not important ones :

World news...
Earthquakes, Typhoons and more natural disasters?
Terrorists again?
2012 December 21, Mayan Calendar depicts a new age.
Apophis is coming in 2029, then 2036.
Ice caps on Himalayas are melting.
Global Warming is in effect.
End of the world?

Then we have those really important ones that can't be forgotten :

How long before I can achieve my dream?
Can I do it?
Do I have enough money to do it?
What if I don't make it?
Will I still stick to my dream at the end of army?
Alamak! Got enough time?
No time! No time!

And more of it.

These are just the few important ones that I can remember.

And I cannot forget them.

Since its a hectic semester.

Gahh.

I need TIME!!

The limit of my Willpower.

2009-01-13T08:48:00.000-08:00

YESH!

Its been fun recently at work.

I've been WORKING!

YAY!

Finally, I get to do some stuff instead of just looking at my laptop the whole time.

Which reminds me.

I need to fill up my logbook.

Shit.

Which links to my IPP Report and Gantt Chart.

Double "Shit".

And I'm left with another 4 weeks more before the start of my CCNA Boot Camp.

Bullshit.

Ah well. I'll get it done one way or another.

Soon.

When I get back at office.

At least I have something to do then.

Now back to topic.

I've been trying to suppress myself.

From scolding vulgarities and other bad stuff that I don't want to do.

Because I want to change.

Improve.

For the better.

For the future.

I've lost control today.

Pfft.

But I did think a lot before I lost control.

I'm feeling tired in the mid afternoons.

For no reason.

Sandman just seems to come and drop a few grains of his magic sand into my eyes.

Then my eyelids will get heavy suddenly and start to close.

At first, I thought it was because I was lugging 3 kg of weight in my bag to almost everywhere I go at work.

Not to mention, my shoulder muscles really feel stronger from that.

Thanks a lot.

Now, I think its because I'm not sleeping early.

Even though I get 7 hours of sleep.

Sometimes.

And perhaps its the thoughts.

The amount of willpower I need from my mind to suppress myself that wears out my mind, body and soul.

It was about 23 to 24 days without incident.

Today is the beginning of a new day.

And perhaps.

I'll manage to suppress it forever.

I hope.

Even if I can't, I must try.

Because.

Its to...

Cleanse my past.

Change my present.

Create my future.

십점 만점에 십점!

2009-01-08T19:15:00.000-08:00

Friday of Week 7.

YESH!

Its another week gone. 5 weeks and counting down.

Then I'll fill my house with a DJ, a glittering ball hanging for the ceiling and invite a few guys and girls who are 십점 만점에 십점!

Don't mind the exclamation mark. It must go with that phrase for emphasis.

Heh.

What does that phrase mean?

When translated, it means :

십점 만점에 십점!

Ship Jom Man Jom E Ship Jom!

10 out of 10!

Which is, in like, "10 points out of 10 points!"

Its the debut single for the South Korean Boy Band, 2PM.

You gotta watch the MV for this song. Its break-dancing and its pretty nice-ish.

The song is really nice, with its rhyming and patterns. Not to forget the MV is a bit funny too.

So, what have I been doing for these past few days?

Nothing, nothing and nothing.

Except 3 hours from yesterday.

And seriously, I feel like I'm not even going to work.

You see, I was supposed to go to NUS with my supervisor to work on a documentation with the people there.

I was supposed to meet him at 3:30 pm.

By right, I could have gone to office at the usual 8:30 to 9 am time, then leave for Clementi at around 1:30pm.

But there's also another way.

I could just head directly for Clementi and reach there are 3:30pm.

But, I'd prefer the former rather than the latter.

At least, I'm in OFFICE.

Rather than letting everyone know I'm sleeping on my bed at home.

Who knows, someone might need me to do something, which I really need to have something to do before I die from boredom or something.

Anyway, I chose the latter, and woke up at 11:30 pm after countless ringings of my alarm.

At first I thought I could go office and show my face for a bit before heading to Clementi. But since there was just no time, I went straight to the MRT station. I reached at around 2:30 pm.

An hour early. Well, its better to be early than late. And, I'd prefer to reach there early, since I wasn't at office for the whole morning. It somehow, makes me feel as if I'm out at onsite at work.

So I waited till around 4:30 pm because my supervisor was held up back at office.

YOU SEE! I should have gone to office in the morning. Ah well.

But I don't feel angry or sorry to my supervisor for being late. He's held up. Probably due to a customer making changes or a meeting and he couldn't leave. Its understandable.

So he asked me to head on to NUS first and discuss the documentation with the customer first.

I took a cab down there and saw NUS for the first time in my life. Then I went to the Computer Centre to find the guy.

My supervisor gave me his number and asked me to call him. I gave the guy a call and he was in the meeting room with another guy.

They were dressed formally, while I was in casual clothing.

It had that "meeting" kind of feeling.

So he asked me on what my supervisor wanted from him. I told him exactly all the stuff, but I don't know whether it was correct as to what my supervisor wanted mostly because I didn't know about the background of that project.

But I somehow got an idea from what I was supposed to get.

Screen captures on configurations, IP addresses on how to telnet in.

Then while I was asking my supervisor for anything else, the customer requested to speak to my supervisor while using my handphone.

I'm like," YES! Finally, some initiative."

Didn't really care much about the phone call. Its work. And if a phone call's the only way to get the requirements fast, its better that way.

Then when I called my supervisor for the last time to ask if there was anything else, he told me to try not to call him now as he's in a meeting.

Then he asked me if I could keep the guy entertained for 30 mins because he was on his way there soon. I said I'll try.

And in the end, I couldn't. It gets hard when you're the younger one there. Get what I mean?

Then when my supervisor told me he was in the cab, I called him and told him the customer left.

Then, in a questioning and frustrated tone, he said he would call the customer. Then he said if I had nothing else, I could go.

Now, I feel very helpless.

I can't even hold the customer for 30 mins.

And the best part.

I came to work for 3 hours.

Self-pawned.

Nuff' said.

Back to what I'm doing now.

What am I listening to now?

2PM's 십점 만점에 십점! / 10 out of 10!

K.Will Ft. MC Mong's Love 119

王力宏's Forever Love

Coldplay's Viva La Vida

Not to forget... Ponyo On A Cliff!

Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo sakana no ko~

Aoi umi kara yattekita~

Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo fukuranda~

Manmaru onaka no onna no ko~

Ah well.

Went back to school just now at around 12 pm. Met up with some of 0603, D2 and FYP guys.

Not to forget, I feel like there are people whom I don't know that know me.

Which is good actually.

I have more friends that I don't know about.

Must be that stunt I pulled off on the last day of my FYP...

Met up with my project supervisor, Mr. Wagio.

Funny, he thought I scored 15 points for my GCE 'O' Levels.

Then after I told him my real score, I asked him why he thought I scored better.

He said someone told him. And he thought I looked like one who did pretty good in O levels.

Then the conversation just went on as normal.

Somehow, I don't really feel that I look studious. Must be my hairstyle.

I must say, I didn't study half as hard as compared to when I entered Poly.

Then Programming in C# placed an interest in me, enabling me to do well.

Networking was so-so. It made me sleep sometimes. Not to mention when the configurations failed, it pisses me off.

Logistics programs was pretty follow step-by-step on the book. Didn't learn much since I played CS more often than doing the work.

Now, I feel learning Korean is pretty much interesting. Even though I get jammed at times.

Not to mention I still have a whole korean dictionary to clear.

And I require a teacher or a korean friend to teach me to converse smoothly in the language.

Seems like from this, I can learn one thing.

Sometimes, you are not what you think you are.

And it is the actions or words of those around you,

That motivates and moves us to do things we would never try to do.

One thing that perhaps some people need.

2009-01-04T18:31:00.000-08:00

Back. From Genting Highlands.

Again.

For the... 18th time?

No seriously. Going there so many times makes that place feel as if its my second home.

Not to mention I will never get lost there.

Except for one place.

The Casino.

Pfft. Another 2 more years and I shall go in.

Then I'll "announce" my completion of knowledge of the whole area in Genting.

Back to work. After 2 weeks of so-called holidays.

Back to the cruel world.

Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity!

Ah dang.

I personally feel, currently, in my life, that having something to do really makes you feel better than having holidays.

Why, you might ask?

If I have work to do, I can at least put some tasks on my mind.

If I'm having holidays, my mind will be thinking too much.

Things like:

Will I be able to make it after army?
What will I do after that?
What will I do while I'm pursuing my dreams?
What if I can't make it to University?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if I have insufficient resources to continue?
What if I fall before I even reach my goal?

And more stuff like that.

I've somehow solved about 2 of the problems listed above.

Sadly, it gave me 4 more problems to worry after that.

Not to mention from what I'm reading and seeing, it will be extremely hard.

But I'm definitely giving it a shot after army.

如果我不从现在开始, 而等待时间来改变自己命运,

到头来, 要后悔已经太迟了.

We create our own future. Our own destinies.

Time doesn't change anything.

Instead, it makes one lose their age, their youth.

It sometimes makes a person regret.

It makes one lose the few chances and opportunities to do something for themselves.

I've already wasted the past 16 years of my life doing nothing for myself.

And now I finally have a target. A path.

Its time to walk forward. Achieve it.

All I need after army, is a guide.

Isn't that what everyone needs?

A guide in their life.

Something to bring them to accomplish what they want.

I just need a guide to bring me to where I want to go.

And the closest thing I can see, is a school.

A visible guide, yet with unknown possibilities and outcomes.

The End of a Disastrous Year

2008-12-30T17:54:00.000-08:00

Its the 31st of December today!

Its New Year's Eve!

Its the end of the year!

Its gonna be the beginning of a new year!

Which still means, I got not much time left.

To do stuff before army begins.

Not that I can't wait for it to start.

In fact, I'm more on the "I can't wait for it to end" part.

Then, I can begin to see.

Feel.

Know.

How it is like to go for singing classes.

ANYHOO!

The Great 2008 is ending!

Great Lousy Disastrous [Insert extremely discouraging and bad words here].

But I must say, I've learnt a lot of stuff this year.

Especially on how to handle falls.

Handling being penniless.

Failed attempt.

Handling a lousy overall level 6 in-charge during FYP for lousy attitude.

Then there are the really better learning experiences.

Dynagen and Dynamips. Good program to use. Seriously.

Working in the office. Pretty stressful but it gets better over time.

Working offsite. Mediacorp was extremely stressful. Believe me.

Spending your free time in the office on learning another language. Its the thing that keeps me going. Beats Redbull or Coffee any day!

Simply to say, this year is really full of bad stuff and happenings.

And only a few good stuffs.

Which I only experienced because I made it so.

I placed interest in Dynagen. And it became interesting to me.

Office was stressful, but I got used to it. Since I know I'll be spending it for another 11 weeks at the beginning.

Now its getting pretty fun, yet forceful to go to work everyday.

Mainly because the environment there is quiet enough for me to absorb what I learn in korean language.

And I wanted to learn Korean because of 3 reasons.

Wondergirls, Wondergirls and more Wondergirls. And I'm not afraid to say it.
I know 3 languages. Good English, Acceptable Chinese and Not that good Malay. Time to add a few more into my arsenal.
I want to go somewhere further than Thailand. And it must be Asia too. So the destination is definitely Korea.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!

Well, I've thought of a few. I could come up some halfway later on.

Confidence. Build lots of it. Confidence to pursue my dreams.
Self Control. Vulgarities. Lesser of it.
Endurance. Irritative stuff. Hold on longer before exploding. I'll be the monk.
Flight. Staying in air longer. 1 second air time over my parents bed without acceleration now.
Master the Korean language. Both speaking and writing.
원더걸스 Concert! I SHALL GO! I MUST GO! I'LL DEFINITELY GO!
Be the officer, be the man. In army, that is. Even if I try.
PES A or B. Either one. Nothing more, nothing less. If there's more though...
Perhaps pick a new art? Jujitsu? Hapkido? Muay Thai?

That's 9. For now.

Well, I'm off for my family trip to Genting later on today.

Didn't really go this whole year because its my final year.

Which goes to explain why there are a lot of pimples on my face this year.

Lack of sleep.

Lack of fruits.

Lack of fun.

Lacking of enjoying "life".

Thinking of my future.

My dream.

I hope it will be a better year, from the start of tomorrow.

And I hope,

My dream stays all the way with me till the end.

Holidays beats every other day of the year. Except a few though...

2008-12-28T18:29:00.000-08:00

OH MY 天!

Its week 6 of attachment!

Not to mention, it will be week 7 soon because of the holidays.

I so love holidays.

We so love holidays.

우리 so love holidays.

わたしたち so love holidays.

And I still cannot believe I have to go to a translator website just to get chinese, korean and japanese characters.

And I still hate Vista to this day.

Because its not like XP, where you can click on the language bar and do stuff. If not, you can just install some language program because everything is suitable for XP.

I can't even find the language bar in Vista. Much less say finding a program compatible with Vista.

And that stupid Zhiyang just pulled the plug on my laptop.

GAHH!

There's autosaving. That's good.

Anyway, we saw something at the cafeteria just now that was pretty funny.

You see, Zhiyang saw this woman.

I took a peep.

The woman went to buy her food. Then walked to the cashier.

I noticed the woman had a funny walking style.

Just before I was going to tell Zhiyang, she looked at me.

Then after I told Zhiyang, he turned and the both of them looked at each other.

Then, I turned to look and she noticed the both of us looking.

Zhiyang turned his head back.

I, naturally facing the woman, can't possibly turn my head back.

That would be retarded.

So I changed my focus to the spaces behind the cafeteria, around the arcade.

And acted like as if there was something.

Guess what.

She turned and looked, wondering what was behind.

Heh.

I sent an SMS to my supervisor just now asking if there was anything for me to do.

He said, "No leh. U juz relax."

(!-_-)

Not that I want to do work.

Which person wants to do work?

I think everyone in the world just wants to enjoy life happily.

Not to forget that each time I have nothing to do, I can practice Korean language.

Bwahahahahahahaha!

OH NOES!

ITS TMR! ITS COMING!

And I'll own it. I shall.

34 days more before I can think freely. Think freedom.

For another 2-3 months. Then I'll start army. Which I want to complete with what I want in it.

The unit I want to go to.

The rank I want to achieve.

Not to forget the haste that I want to complete it.

Before I can begin realising my dream. My future.

But it still depends on tomorrow though.

4 days without incident.

Although I do say once or twice in a day.

But, I'm trying very hard to supress it.

Supress what?

Saying vulgarities.

Heh.

Trying to change. For the better.

2008-12-20T21:56:00.001-08:00

Gahh!

Having migraine now.

Its like a pulse of headache each time my heart beats.

You need to experience it to feel it.

Funny, practicing Korean has somehow made the pain go away.

Ehehehe! Its a sign.

(!-_-)

Then, on Friday at Mediacorp, I had neck cramps.

Don't really know if its the usual neck cramps.

There's this specific part or muscle of my body that tends to cramp up around the back of my neck.

And the cramp lasts for nearly 5 seconds each time it occurs.

And it feels like someone's choking me from the back each time.

Must be punishment for saying vulgarities.

Oh by the way, Me and Zeke are trying to change.

LOL!

We're going to change for the better.

Pyon-Hwa!
Kawata!
Gai Bian!
Change!

Breaking. Broke. Broken.

2008-12-19T06:43:00.000-08:00

Back. After a week of real work at "work.

Hope you understood that.

Now.. Back to the topic.

Khalis is breaking. Down that is.

I spend almost the whole day having other thoughts in my mind.

Like what I want to do after army. All those stuff I posted previously.

If you didn't know, read.

Khalis is broke.

Taxi, taxi and more taxi-ing to Mediacorp makes me broke. Not to mention I'm seldom late for work when I'm not supposed to.

By the way, I was lazy to find another way to place the word "few", so I used the meaning of "seldom" in another way, in that sentence.

Khalis is broken.

I'm not sleeping well. Seriously.

Another week of schedules like these and I'll really collapse.

Don't know why, but I feel extremely tired in the mornings. And just abit awake in the afternoons. Then, I really get ready to go to bed in the nights.

Its like as if all the energy from me has seeped away to somewhere else.

Gahh.

Nothing much to write about today.

Just that, I've been watching lots of Korean Variety shows. And they're dang hilarious, if you understand them.

Self-tutoring on Korean Language is going somewhat smoothly I guess. I still trying to remember Korean ABCs.

And I feel like I'm in a kindergarten when I'm teaching myself.

Still. I've got a few basic sentences done.

Like...

Ahnyeonghaseyo.
Kamsahamnida.
And a few others.

Slow progress but its the best I can move, for now.

Oh yea. Try listening to the 2 new Korean songs I've added.

The song "Do You Know That" is sung by the famous Kim Bum Soo. Don't think you'll really know who he is by the name.

He's the guy who sang "I Miss You", or "BoGoShipDa". The theme song for the Korean drama, "Stairway to Heaven".

The song also includes one of my favourite Wondergirls, Kim Yoobin, who raps the part of the song.

The other korean song, "Love 119" is sung by K. Will. It also features MC Mong as the rapper in the song. Although I don't really know the singers, but I must say this song is really nice with the combination of rap and pop/ballad together.

Enjoy.

A Change or an Evolution?

2008-12-15T00:49:00.000-08:00

Ahnyeonghaseyo, Khalis imnida!

Can't believe I did that.

Oh well.

Its finally Week 4 of IPP.

Which means at the end of this week, I would have finished a month of attachment.

Wow.

Time really flies when you're not thinking about it.

I can still remember how we first entered the company.

The briefing.

The introductory lecture.

The first 3 days of doing nothing.

The discussions.

The silent aura in the office.

The first week of formal wear.

The first 20 cent coin I placed in the Daytona machine at the Recreation Room.

The first game of pool at NCS.

The first time we finished work officially at 6 p.m.

The reading of the CCNA book that still lies in front of me now.

Then came the second week.

Routing protocols started coming back for revenge.

RIP, RIP v2, OSPF, IGRP and EIGRP.

Then a few newer and advanced ones that Zhiyang wanted to learn.

BGP and HSRP.

How I read until I almost fell asleep.

Which I really did on one of the days.

Analysing of the project.

Test Cases.

UATs.

More work for me, which unbelievably meant something good.

Off-site work for the first time.

At the Media Development Authority at the URA building.

Item tagging.

Then came Week 3.

Hari Raya Haji.

My mind-boggling decision on what I wanted to do after I came out of army.

Which, I've finally decided to give it a shot.

And I believe in it.

I can do it.

Helped another supervisor at Mediacorp.

Saw Tay Ping Hui, Mark Lee, Ann Kok, Paige Chua, and Suzanne Jung.

Got shocked at her height.

She looked way different on Channel Newsasia than in real person.

The only newscaster I pay attention to.

=X. I ought to slap myself.

Didn't wow and act like a fanboy though.

Their faces at Mediacorp.

Looked so natural and cheerful there.

Unlike being hounded by fans outside.

Not that I'm saying its not good to have fans.

Surely sometimes, some people want to have their free time alone.

The quiet and stressful working environment I felt there.

Then freedom after finishing work there.

And one of the most interesting experiences as a project assistant at the relocation of MDA.

Which completely drained my energy from 4 p.m till 6 a.m in the next morning.

Gotta say it was fun and full of experiences.

Not to mention, I've never felt that tired till I could not write anymore on my logbook.

The first time I slept peacefully on my bed.

And finally, its the beginning of Week 4.

Beginning of another new week.

Another reminder that my time is running out.

Not that I can do anything with army coming.

But, at least I could do something else in the meantime.

Which I am currently doing in the office when I have nothing to do.

Learning korean language on my own.

For now, that is.

I'm still gonna find a class to learn.

And I must say, its a pretty interesting language.

And it makes me open my mouth in awe on how fast they speak it, and understand what the
person is talking about in a second.

I take 5 seconds to decode a single word.

Just like learning ABC again.

ABC was funny.

Jia, Yi, Bing, Ding was interesting for awhile.

Until I came to use it often.

Then it became a drug.

Now, I want to be able to read traditional chinese faster as compared to the speed I can read it
now.

I get stuck on the hard words.

But I can still understand the simple ones.

Must be because they looked familiar.

I want to know how to speak basic korean communicative language before I graduate.

Or maybe before I enter army.

I feel I've changed.

A bit for the better.

And a bit for the worse.

Better in the fact that my ways of thinking have changed.

How I should become more responsible for my own future.

How I should plan for my own future.

How I should do things for myself and not rely on others.

Even though I still rely sometimes.

How I should improve myself on my own.

How I should have self-control.

Like reducing the amount of vulgarities I hurl. =X

Whoops, that didn't come out of me.

I've said around 5 to 8 today.

Which is good compared to the 20 to 40-ish I might say everyday.

And worse for the fact, I still say it out.

I still tekan and scold people.

Heh.

I want to do great things.

Change the world.

That was what I wanted at first.

I wanted to break barriers between the poor and the rich.

Now, to begin on that path.

I want...

To know how to speak fluent korean.

To know how to speak fluent japanese.

To know how to speak fluent mandarin.

To sing well.

To sing better.

To sing beyond my limits.

To endure better.

To endure as much as I can.

To gain confidence.

To be confident in everything I do.

To do the best I can do.

To do the best I should do.

I want to change.

Not only myself.

But people's lives.

The world.

For the better.

I guess I'll just let time do its part for now.

2008-12-08T06:36:00.000-08:00

Before I begin today's post.

Happy Hari Raya Haji guys!

Ok, now I can begin.

Heh.

Sometimes, I hate this world.

For all its contradictions.

Such as how people fight over each other for control and supremacy.

How the world has evolved into a harsh environment for survival.

How the thing "money", can make it so damn hard to accomplish, if not everything, almost all the things in the world one would want to do.

Yet again, I love the world and would like to thank it for the countless things its teaching me every passing day.

Over the course of 19 years since I was born till now.

I've seen how the world evolved. Changed.

I've seen how people changed over the years too.

I've seen events that caused happiness and sadness around the world.

I've felt too, how a household can manage with a sole single person supporting a family of four.

I've felt sadness myself.

I've felt joy when I achieve my victory and goal.

And I've definitely felt and remembered every crumble when I fall down.

Not to mention, it leaves a scar on my confidence.

No wonder my confidence level hits a low of 0.67% over a 100%.

Okay, that was crap.

The people I see everyday.

The lessons I learn from seeing the events all around me.

Has definitely taught me how one must cherish this single life.

How one should try his or her best at everything.

So that one can have zero regrets.

Sadly to say.

What I've seen recently.

Has made me lost.

Blurred my vision.

Confused my thoughts.

At the age of 6, my kindergarten teacher asked my whole class what was one's ambition when they grow up.

I said I wanted to be an Astronaut.

I was interested with the study of planets at that time.

9 years later, I changed that ambition.

By the way, I get a lot of influence from my mother.

She said I could try becoming someone that could combat hackers, computer viruses, trojans and worms.

Not to mention, the various computer viruses that emerged in the previous few years.

I followed on that path to learn more about computer networks for the next 2 years.

Then, ever since I saw things, events around me.

I changed what I wanted to be.

I saw how some people regretted what they wanted to do in their life.

I saw how some were happy with what they were now.

I wanted that.

I didn't want to regret.

Even if I failed at it, at least I tried.

I wanted to give it a shot.

I wanted.

To be a singer.

Yet, I don't think I have to confidence to do it.

Even when I went with Nave to a school for music and singing.

My heartbeat increased.

It was filled with fear and nervousness.

Fear of not being able to achieve anything if I enrolled in this school.

Nervous of not knowing what will happen after enrolling into this school.

But I trust the school itself. For its many outstanding students.

In other countries, there are many music entertainment groups that train singers.

Singapore, being a small country has less than ten of these groups, from what I know.

This school, is what I think to be, if not the best, one of the few promising ones.

Yet, the road block called "money", stands in my way.

I'm not that well off.

In fact, my family is falling in a rapid decline since the millennium.

I wanted to stop this.

I wanted to do something for my parents.

Give them an enjoyable life.

I want to try this.

Wait. I can't say try.

I want to go for it.

Not only for my parents or my family.

But for myself too.

After consulting my so-called "personal consultants".

They feel I should wait it out till I almost finish National Service.

And I feel, its going to pass by extremely fast.

I've finished 19 years of my life. In a blink of an eye.

This upcoming 2 years, perhaps will probably vanish in another minute.

Who knows, I might have a change of heart and mind again during that two years.

However, even if after army, I still want to pursue this.

Do I really have what it takes?

Lost.

2008-12-07T09:56:00.000-08:00

Back.

Yet again from another few days of detailed thoughts and self-analysis.

I haven't forgotten the wish I made 3 years ago.

And I'm still pondering over it.

To simply describe what I'm thinking of now, imagine me in this situation.

I'm pushing a bike along a muddy and dirt-covered path, with mist and fog all around.

To add on, the path is so slippery that once I slip and fall, I drop.

Extremely hard.

And reaching that path again will be, if not impossible, extremely hard.

I can't see anything more than 10 metres ahead of me.

The mist is so thick I cannot even see what is in front of me.

Then, there's always the other option to get away from the path.

I get on the bike, and I cycle to another path which I can see too clearly and where it will lead to.

I've been thinking over this for the past 2 to 3 years.

Each time I see one of these "events" that appear everywhere around me.

It influences me.

Changes my mindset.

And I get stuck.

Right into this current situation.

People, ordinary humans who are, if not younger, around my age are accomplishing things way higher than what I can do.

I got this quote from a show. And I think it makes sense.

"There's nothing wrong with imitating a person as long as it's to find who you really are"

Yet again, imitating someone is hard.

Sometimes, I really wish I can see the future.

See how it turns out to be. What will become of me in another 4 to 5 years time.

Seriously, I really do not know what I want to be after I finish my National Service.

Become a Network Engineer?

Something not related to my interest or course of study?

Or what I've been thinking for these past 3 years?

Even if I want to do what I've been thinking, the only thing that is stopping me.

Do I really have what it takes?

From there, can I carry on?

Or do I just die down soon after accomplishing it?

Now, I feel that I'm losing time.

Every passing hour.

Every passing minute.

Every passing second.

In another 6 to 7 months, I leave civilization and enter training to protect my country.

Who knows what will happen after that?

Will I change my mind?

Or will I continue pursuing what I wanted?

Each time I think about it.

My mind feels like it's about to explode.

The thought of it continually grows and expands to the point where my brain cannot take it anymore.

The only way to stop it is to close my eyes and lie down on my bed.

I want to do this.

Because I only have one life to do it.

One path to make that will last me all the way.

And I want to give my parents, my family, something that is hard to achieve now.

An enjoyable life.

Ever since I started secondary school.

My life has been in decline.

Monetary problems explains everything.

I want to accomplish this.

But I'm lacking one thing that leads to the only thing that restricts and slows my movement along this path I need to take.

Confidence.

I want to call for help.

But instead, I end up getting dissuaded.

Lost and unable to know which way to go.

Perhaps mocked and laughed at.

And I know no one can help me but myself.

If I don't, no one can or will.

I need some help.

Some assistance.

A helping hand.

Someone to give me a head start.

Someone to guide me in the right path.

Perhaps, walk on the path with me.

How does one realise a dream?

2008-12-03T22:45:00.000-08:00

Its nearing the end of week 2 of IPP.

Yay! 2 weeks down!

Damn. Another 10 more to go.

I hate things when the bad stuff have a higher ratio than the good stuff.

I pretty much like my job anyways.

When there's work to do, that is.

I went to MDA at the URA Building at Tanjong Pagar on Monday. Saw how the people there did item tagging.

And after seeing what people do there, I want to work there.

Here's an idea of what they do.

Imagine you have a workdesk in front of you.

Just around 1 metre in front of you workdesk, you have a television.

On your workdesk, you have a laptop with Microsoft Word opened.

Your task?

Watch new movies / videos, then type out what you think about the show.

PFFT!

Here's the better part.

There's another section where the people test games before they can be sold.

I think you can probby guess it out. But I'm still gonna say.

You play games on various consoles. Xbox 360, PS3, PSP.

You name it, they have it.

Then type about the game on your desktop.

WALAO!

Such a job... WHO DON'T WANT?!

No wonder these guys don't look stressed at all. Heh!

Then on Wednesday, I went back to school, to help out in testing the connectivity and throughput of a new Wireless LAN connection.
I saw new stuff. Seriously.

Wireless Control System. IxChariot.

Its godly stuff that shows all the internet modules around the school with a floor plan.

And the other, allows you to measure the throughput, everything in a particular floor.

OH MY GOD.

Really fun stuff.

Now, I'm spending my time in the office doing stuff.

Revising CCNA topics.

On Packet Tracer 5.0.

Sometimes Dynagen if I have to try out newer stuff like BGP.

Listening to TETRA-FANG's Individual System everyday.

Wondergirls, Wondergirls and more Wondergirls.

I feel more interested in the girls than the songs.

Of course, they're so wonderful. Duh.

Now, I want to go to South Korea.

Bwahahahahahahaha!

Call me anything. I haven't seen famous people before.

I swear the most famous I ever saw was... Mediacorp's Chew Chor Meng.

And I was around Primary 6.

And he was my idol at that time.

Now going to South Korea sounds abit stalk-ish.

Maybe I should really try to be a singer.

But its most probably filled with phail.

Look at Ocean Ou De Yang.

People now go mostly 70-80% on looks instead of voice.

And I can't really say I can sing that well.

Just above average.

Being spotted is hard enough.

Unless I have to go learn to get spotted, which was what I was planning when I finish army.

But its like almost 3K for a few months.

From this, I infer something.

Money, sometimes, still makes the world go round.

Not that the world's dying from all the natural resources that we need.

And I have to freaking pay S$1.80 for a dumb bottle of mineral water at Orchard.

Now, that's really dumb.

Why not....

I get the bottle for free.

I finish the water.

And I refill it with tap water.

HEY! It has fluorine okay!

Healthy teeth. =D

But, the dream to become a singer.

Looks hard.

Looks bleak.

3rd Day of Attachment.

2008-11-26T07:18:00.000-08:00

Attachment.

And its getting pretty dull.

Mainly because I have nothing to do.

And when that happens, I get sleepy.

And its boring and frustrating when you can't sleep when you're sleepy.

Its the 3rd day of IPP.

Well. Its counted the second day for me.

Cos I'm on leave today.

Had something on and then needed to grab some FYP files at my "previous" computer before I left.

GNS3 Scenarios.

.Net files.

Etc etc etc.

Leaving behind the Counter-strike and Warcraft III.

Then, I spent half my time there at Level 3 with a few of the good ol' 0603.

Crapping. Playing Joni's iPhone.

Laming around as usual.

Then I went up to Level 6 to see the lab. At the same time, get my files.

Mr Bala's team took over me and Aaron's com. Network Scanning.

Then I saw Clarence using Wireshark. Something similar to what was placed inside the GNS3 Manual.

Mr Wagio's team was doing something new. Taking over Alvin's and Zhiyang's computers.

Then I saw something.

The damned Ceylonese.

He's there to supervise the people doing his project in the next phase. Pfft.

Then went down to Level 3 again before going up to eat with the Ceylonese.

Then followed 06 ol' three to south.

Then I don't know why, but I didn't have the mood to head home.

So I stayed there till around 6 and went home with them.

And I feel.

I have lost some fun time with them.

Perhaps its due to IPP and FYP.

I need to spend more time with them.

First day at work. First meeting of 0603 after 3 months!

2008-11-24T08:02:00.000-08:00

Today, I officially start my attachment.

And apparently, its pretty boring.

Most probby because my OIC is not in the office.

So I got no work to do.

Yang yang so lucky. Got OIC. Got work to read up.

So I read up on the various routing protocols again with him until my eyes almost want to close.

Then came 1pm. Met up with the old 0603 chaps who were having their FYP now. And they look really, different.

Some looked skinny. Some looked much better. Some looked damn happy.

I was happy to see them again. Like duh!

So long since I heard Joni, Kevin, JS, Eileen and Chun's voice.

No. If its what you're thinking now, I'm not gay.

Now I really feel like going back to school to do FYP.

Cos I think it would be damn fun to do FYP with them.

Everyday, deciding on what to eat.

Where to go.

What to do.

Talk crap.

Too bad. I'm in IPP now. But since school is so close, I guess dropping by once or twice wouldn't hurt.

Then back at home. Crapping with the brasthers again. As usual.

We got Doraemon's song! WOOTSA!

And then, the next day is about to begin in like 6 hours time.

So I better rest now.

Apparently, Zijian left another piece of advice for me.

I can run fast.

Like, damn fast.

And its called sprinting.

But, my sprinting lasts for awhile.

Because I lack stamina.

Motivation to endure.

Confidence to complete.

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And Eileen,

You might think you're fat.

But what you think,

Doesn't necessarily reflects on what you really look like.

Don't make yourself miserable for what you think you aren't

Instead, make yourself enjoyed and relaxed for what you know you are.

End of time.

2008-11-21T09:47:00.000-08:00

Finally, after 12 weeks of project-ing and fun.

I can say "Bye."

Not that I'm happy about leaving FYP.

It has brought happy, and unhappy times.

Of course, remember the good times and forget the bad ones.

Student Meal Hotcakes with Sausage for S$4.50 every morning
Lunch trips
Class outings
Seoul Garden feast
Prawn "slaying"
Rides at Downtown East
Big Walk Event

Memories, that stay forever,
And will not be forgotten.
Even if I do forget,
Looking at the door of the lab L-633,
Will refresh and remind me,
Of the fun and laughter,
We had together.

Today, 3 of us went to catch a movie at Marina Square.

Me, Alvin and Zijian.

Quantum Of Solace.

Since it was like the end, we almost fell asleep. I pretty much think its due to the comfy seats and the cooling air-con.

Still, I forced my eyes to stay open till now. This is the second time I'm watching it. And its still nice to watch again.

The plot. The action. Definitely worth the second time.

Not the third time though.

Perhaps we will catch the upcoming Donnie Yen movie together again. Or perhaps Ong Bak 2.

Zijian left a note for me at the bottom of his recent post.

It does have a reason though.

A pretty sad day today. The last "chance" to do it.

Yet I've failed. And saw something else that has made me feel broken and lost again.

I may not know what is happening. But I definitely can infer some scenarios from what I've seen.

And since I'm negative, I'll always choose the worst one.

At least I don't fall hard if I fail.

I may have the power.

But doesn't each and everyone of us have it?

I may be a gem waiting to be discovered.

But some gems take decades.

Perhaps centuries.

Or millenniums, before they get discovered.

I've been waiting all my life.

Who's to say I'll need to wait another few more years to come?

The image of what I saw, loops indefinitely in my mind.

Perhaps, it was all a facade.

An imagination.

Something that doesn't happen in reality so often.

I'm worn out. Tired. Dead beat.

Yet, the looping of this memory, troubles and storms my mind with infinite whirls and jolts.

I used to find reason for everything I do. Then, I'll do it.

Funny.

This time, I've found reason.

But without courage and confidence to do it.

And its gradually leaking away within.

Just like what James Bond said.

When the adrenaline kicks in.

There has to be something to compensate.

Each time I get nearer, my adrenaline builds up.

Tension rises.

But, I can't compensate for it.

Not even a single shot.

Faces. Facades. Assumptions.

2008-11-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

This post is separated into 2 sections.

I might draw bad blood.

But if I don't have my say in this, I feel I wasn't even part of this to begin with.

12 weeks ago, we were silent.

Anti-social.

Mostly attributed to the fact, we don't even know each other at all before.

Then, 2 to 3 weeks later.

We bonded together like a new class. Instead of just being lab mates.

Time passed and we became somewhat, a family.

Things go so well onwards.

But perhaps the saying is really true.

Good things, always come to an end.

Or is it really true?

Perhaps its just a misconception or an excuse humans make up, just to explain on their inability to think before they act.

On my two cents worth, I seriously do not think someone would want to ruin something, planned from weeks ago, just because he or she feels like it.

Even if there was rivalry or a fight in between, the situation causes both parties to suffer losses.

Both in friendship, and in monetary terms.

Perhaps when you combine friendship and money together, you get the word:

Jealousy

Then there are those, that only consider one part of the story.

After which, they trust in that story and don't want to hear more.

They would stick with that side. Sometimes which people might think, its the correct, righteous, victorious and the side that is always right.

They don't listen to what the other party has to speak or say before acting.

I dare you.

Take perhaps 50 to around 100 people to stand in a line.

Ask the first person to pass a fairly simple logic or theory, to the next person.

Then vice versa.

Sure. For the first 20 persons, the message might be passed on correctly.

But I am sure, within the next 30 to 50 persons, the message will be jumbled up into something even more complicated that doesn't even makes sense.

Then ask the last and the first person to compare what they have heard.

The moral of this dare?

Try listening to what both sides have to say. Then deduce a conclusion before jumping to stupid assumptions.

I know I myself haven't heard the other part of the story yet. But I choose to believe in the part which I heard.

Because at least someone shares what happens with me.

Instead of forming an alliance.

You said it was a class decision to cancel this event.

I don't see a class decision if I don't even know this happened.

You want to know what I see?

A group, rapidly discussing silenting about stuff a class can't even know.

And a silent girl, unknowing of what is spoken behind her back.

And the rest, scattered into not knowing what is even happening.

And I definitely do not think a class is only made up of a group of 4 to 5 people.

Unless, you want to separate the class.

I suggest you call it a group instead.

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Just read Zijian's blog.

And I feel it makes a hell lot of sense.

And I really tend to give up from what I see.

Instead of what I know.

Not that I can know what a person is thinking.

I sure am no Matt Parkman, who can read everyone's thoughts.

And even if I might have deja vu, or premonitive senses.

But I definitely cannot see what is going to happen next.

Yet again, even mentally, or physically, I don't have enough stamina to run forever. I really need a hint.

A clue.

A goal to achieve.

A starting line to know, when can this slow run allow me to sprint for eternity.

Perhaps, I should jump.

Higher.

Farther.

Lastly, to fly into the sky.

I may not have enough confidence to even step in to talk to you.

But I really want to.

The First Impression.

2008-11-17T08:12:00.000-08:00

Its currently like 12:12 am. Just completed half of my presentation slides for my FYP final presentation on Wednesday. I hope nothing screws up by then.

And I'm damn tired from editing presentation slides. Printing screens.

My god.

Not to mention, later at school.

I got animations to do.

At least there's work. Can't blame anyone for that though.

Now back to topic.

I wonder.

How many people depend on the first impression to know a person?

Like for example, Me.

I would bet that almost everyone, would think I'm a malay boy at first sight.

Then I speak chinese and I shock the whole world.

And they give this face.

O.O

With that "WOW" look.

Of course, this makes it hard for me to find friends. I can't speak malay. Not that fluent. Just some random slang.

In fact, I'm more fluent in chinese than malay.

Yet, because of this, I manage to make more chinese friends than malay friends.

But all in all,

Does the First Impression really count so much?

Changing. Yet again.

2008-11-16T08:40:00.000-08:00

Yes. I've abandoned the cutesy look for a rather normal, default template.

Not to mention, the website's looking a bit shaky.

Blame me if you want. I just wanted something to display my blog title. Heh.

Not to mention, I saw Zijian's blog. And had an idea. In fact, this post came from one of his posts too.

Anyways, its nearing the end of FYP / FYPJ. Whatever you call it.

Just another 5 more days before I have my weekend to rest before starting IPP, or attachment if you might call it.

Time really flies. When you're pretty much enjoying yourself. And it moves at such a pace so slow you could even see it pass by you when there's practically nothing to do.

But I must really thank FYP for letting me to know the whole of L633.

Alvin, my old secondary school buddy.
Zijian and Karkit, the Monster Hunters.
Zhiyang, the guy to really ask for help when you have problems.
Spenser, for DE-E-ing with me.
Aaron, for being Mr Gorgeous.
Johnny, for basketball.
Bear, for the PSP games.
The rest of the girls, for being a really crazy and lunatic bunch in the lab.

The last 5 days on L633.
I'll miss the monster hunting.
LAN gaming inside.
Crap.
Doing GNS3.
NAPFA trainings.
The level 4 pull-up bar.
Mr Wagio and Mr Lam.
Shopping Arcade, especially the trips to Cheers.
Cakes from the birthday celebrations.
Lunch with the peeps.
Saying the word "Sotong" when someone comes.
Seeing Mark Lim.

Definitely,
The peeps in L633.
You guys made FYP like a holiday.

Then not to miss out.
EI0603.
The best class to have ever existed.
Since 2006.
And to exist forever.

I'll definitely come back from my workplace to have lunch with you guys.
Jie Sheng.
Joni.
Eileen.
Chun Hwee.
Sashayz.
Hidayat.
Ken.
And the rest of the class.

The people I won't forget.

Forever.

Time.

2008-11-11T06:12:00.000-08:00

Yet another hectic week has passed. And my deadline nears.

Today's topic is going to be on Time.

Or 时间.

Or 時間.

Probably one of the most important factors in the world. It decides on what happens to everything.

How one grows.

How one ages.

How much one learns.

How long one takes.

And of course, it affects more things than just that.

Time has affected me a lot.

It has created bonds. Families, Friends.

It has made me grow older. Definitely stronger. Allowed me to learn things until the age I am today. During this course of time, I've had a few helping hands.

I've seen people. Made new friends.

Then comes the other bad side of Time.

It doesn't stop.

Project deadlines moves at such a speed it reaches your doorstep in a blink of an eye. Exams and tests just pop up everywhere. And of course, it shortens amount of time you can do something before it vanishes away.

Which is why we have the word, Opportunity.

Of course, I'm not going to do a whole definition on the word Time itself. This post, is about how Time has, or should I say, is going to affect me soon.

1 more week before I physically disappear from school for 3 months for my IPP.

1 week ago, I saw someone.

I don't really know why. I feel happy whenever I see this person.

And perhaps, this could be the reason why my pimples are clearing.

I meant the happiness thingy by the way.

And I feel extremely tensed up when I see this person.

I guess you guys know what I'm talking about.

Time, however, has somehow challenged me.

I have 1 more week before it gets harder to know that person better.

I don't know if its an opportunity. I can't really see when opportunities appear.

But I wanna go for it. Just to give it my best shot.

A chance that doesn't always come by.

I officially declare myself, a bastard.

2008-11-06T07:25:00.000-08:00

Back. Finally found some free time. Well, mostly because my lappy's becoming an irritant by auto restarting.

Therefore, without further ado, I hereby declare myself:

A Bastard.

For not posting after countless weeks.
For playing games and not doing my project.
For spending a big amount of money this month.
And for every other bad stuffs you want to place here.

Still, everything's been going well.

GNS3 is really becoming easier to understand.
So is Dynagen.
And they both run together with Dynamips.

Driving as usual, is fail.

Birthdays, birthdays and more birthdays with the fun L633.

Premonitions coming true as usual. The exact image of me holding a stress ball while talking to Wagio.

And not to mention I had a dream / nightmare about my friend getting involved in a car accident that left her with zero scars even though she flew like... 1000 feet in the air?

Record breaking I guess.

Did I mention she had a parachute strapped on too?

Ok, that's pretty dumb.

ANYHOO!

Back to topic.

Oh by the way, I learnt that word from a friend on mine. The kok blog.

Seriously, back to topic.

Did a blood donation recently. Don't think my blood's gonna be used though. My damn temperature was like 37.2 degrees. The nurse did say my blood pressure was not bad. The moment the needle went in my vein, blood gushed like...

Diarrhoea, flowing like the river.

But, I liked the feeling of donating blood.

I feel some sadomasochistic feelings running through me. Bwahahahaha! Just kidding. But its really fun to see how much one can give, and at the same time, help others with it.

And I became a volunteer for the blood donation drive the next day.

Which coincidentally, is today.

And I saw something.

Which only I know.

A few others know.

And... no one else.

Or perhaps one more person who knows.

Seriously, who knows.

Recent Events!

2008-10-01T08:36:00.000-07:00

I'm BACK!!

After yet another "hectic" week.

I meant the waking up part when I say "hectic".

Hence, the inverted commas.

Anyway, its time to discuss on recent events!

Firstly, Class Dinner at Newton Food Centre!

Followed by a pretty disastrous Disaster Movie...

Whole class went to Newton to break fast with me and have dinner. Food was damn nice and filling. Especially the beef and the stingray. 好吃!

Then we went off to Cineleisure to watch something disastrous.

Ironically, the name of the movie was similar to the word "disastrous".

Disaster Movie

I must say, the first front parts of the movie were pretty humourous.

Then it all started from "Jessica Simpson" singing songs. The only best part of the movie to me, would be when the credits came out. The end of my torment.

I would give this movie a score of.... 2/10.

Zero humour. Literally. Perhaps for us Singaporeans.
I wasted S$7.70 on it.
Its simply disastrous as compared to their previous production, Meet The Spartans.
Just to make it worse, its still disastrous if you're reading this point.

Next up, Formula 1 Singapore Night Race Grand Prix!

By the way, its pronounced "grahn preez". Not Grand Prix itself.
Or you can pronounce it my style. "Grond Prey"

Yes. Definitely must talk about this.

Although I went there to meet Haziq at work, but who can ignore the racing sounds that speeds past their ears?

Apparently, the race course was called "Marina Bay Circuit Track". Pretty cool name. Must be due to the word Marina Bay. Sounds Tokyo Drift-ish. By the way, I'm comparing this to a few of the other names.

Not to mention, its a night race. And the cars were really nice.

About the sounds... Well.. Here's my 2 cents worth on it.

Its really damn shiok to hear the sound of a Formula 1 Car race past, and even see it in motion. Followed by the few sonicbooms that come after the car has moved like 300 metres away from you.

But after that, it gets abit painful.

About half a dozen cars come along later. The sound of tires and engines revving past gets repeated over and over again. Not to mention, each car that moves past produces sounds similar to ten thousand, or perhaps 1 million houseflies that are hovering 1 cm away from your ear.

But still, the coolest part is how each car moves past so quickly in a blink of an eye. How pieces of rubber and tar that gets burned can be seen as a piece of ember flying into the sky and disappearing after that. How a dozen cars that move past look as if they are breaking the speed of sound from the amount of vapour or dust that can be seen as if it was the dust tail of a comet.

This event is definitely worth a score of 10/10.

Not to mention, Singapore should have netted in a few hundred grand from this event.

So please, lower prices for everything. And make that god damn 7% GST to 5% again. Because I still don't see any increase in services from any restaurants. It still the same old:

"Hi! Can I take your order?"
"Hi! How may I help you?"
"That will be all?"
"Do you want to serve it now or later?"
"Do you want any additional toppings?"

And the standard stuff.

Oh yea. Didn't forget to mention. It was Bear's Birthday!
Had a pretty brief celebration with him and the guys inside. Because my team was about to go for the school promo.

Happy Birthday!

Thirdly, FASTING MONTH'S OVERRRRR!!!!!

No more waiting till 7 p.m to eat.
No more waking up early to eat.
No more growling stomachs.
No one to tempt me anymore, even though it doesn't work.
No more waking up late I guess.

For the next 365 days, perhaps.

And I did something I'm really proud of.

On the last day of fasting, I didn't wake up to eat at 5 a.m. By the way, this is called sahur. Its the last time to eat before we start fasting at 6 p.m.

My stomach growled at 10 a.m, 12 p.m and around 3 p.m.

I went for NAPFA training and did:

SBJ
800 metre run
4 sets of 6 chin-ups
3 sets Lunges and Jumps

Then I broke fast with Zhiyang.

Bandung, H2O and plain water never tasted that good.

Next up, Prawning and movies coming up!

And I do feel I've got a good monster hunting partner and party coming up! Time to get stronger! 7* village quest clear! And I'm trying to solo the G* myself. For now, I did solo the dual Hypnoc, even though I'm pretty noobish compared to the pros.

But mehh... its good enough for me.

Getting late already. Gotta blast!

4th week of FYP. Unlucky!

2008-09-26T06:51:00.000-07:00

Yet again. Another post.

This week in FYP has been pretty "busy".

Not to mention, Aggravating, Irritating and Frustrating.

I really am starting to think I'm cursed with 1 million years of bad luck.

First. I set my lappy to reformat and return to default factory settings. This would probby take like around 15 mins so I went to take a bath first. I came back and my lappy is turned off.

I turn it on, thinking it's reformatted. Right after the booting screen, this is what shows:

NTLDR is not found
Press any key to restart

So my face becomes like really fed up and I'm having this 3 words in my mind.

WHAT THE F***?

Luckily, I pre-ordered Vista Business from school that day. And now, my lappy runs on Vista. Pretty interesting. But I still prefer XP.

Secondly, I get a warning letter from Mark Lim and Kelvin Ng for being late. Apparently, the timing of me clocking in is taken from the fingerprint system and four of the timings showed that I'm 30 minutes late.

8:52 a.m
9:02 a.m
9:03 a.m
9:17 a.m

And those timings are still clearly embedded in my mind.

Yay.

And now, I'm on probation for 2 weeks to come to school early.

Might not sound like a good reason to you. But seriously, give it a try for a week first. Then tell me your comments on this:

Try sleeping at 12 a.m.
Wake up at 5 a.m.
Just spend around 15 mins eating stuff
Go back to sleep
Try waking up 45 mins later at 6 a.m.
Go to school after that on bus 72 from Tampines Interchange

Test that for 1 week, then come back to me about the results.

I got countered with this question instead, "In your previous semesters, you had classes that started at 8 a.m. right? Why can you make it on time for that and not for your FYP?"

You wanna know why?

BECAUSE THAT LESSON FALLS ONLY ON A SINGLE DAY WHERE I NEED TO WAKE UP AT 8 A.M.!

NOT FOR A FISHING WHOLE WEEK!

And then, I receive a warning to remove me from my competition due to my "attitude".

Attitude, they call it.

If the problem is with my attitude, why do I want to sacrifice my health to sleep only for 4-5 hours, and then come to school?

Not to mention, even though muslim students are able to go home at 5 p.m instead of the usual 6 p.m...

I CLOCK OUT AFTER 6 P.M, GOD DAMN IT!

Never mind that. Now, I just want to finish this probation period and do my project in peace.

Here's a list of stuff that I like and I hate, the dos and don't s during FYP:

Things I Hate:

Fingerprint Clock In System. The bane of my existence.
Unfair treatment between similar courses. Why do we get to be the guinea pigs for the fingerprint system and not those at Level 3?
An auto-shutdown laptop. Seriously.
A handphone that can literally go on low batt after 5 mins of talking, even after being fully charged.
A PSP that can go on low batt after 15 mins of WiFi play. I can't socialize better if this is not fixed.
Being scolded, ranted, accused of stuff I did not do, including giving lousy "attitude" just because I reach school late by 30 minutes.
How lecturers give you a solution to your late-coming due to specific reasons. Such as, "If you can't make it on time for this month, then we'll delay it later. You'll just have to finish your third year later."
Systems and Rules. They were meant to be broken, you know.
How some password retrieval website works if you fail to type in the correct password 3 times. Dark Eden website has wasted 2-3 hours of my life till now.

Things I Like

The guys in my lab. They make the apparent negative score of -1000000 on FYP into 100%. The existing and pushing force to reach school everyday without fail.
Monster Hunter Portable 2nd G. I have a hunter to hunt with now in lab.
Dynamips, Dynagen and GNS3. Its way more fun than the dang fingerprint system.
NAPFA. New friends, new buddies.
My supervisors. Comparitive to the others, they deserve a 9/10.

Do's in FYP

Come early. Warning letters are time bombs. This... Somehow shows your attitude in FYP.
Endure, endure and endure. It goes to show your willpower to take scoldings from your supervisor.
Keep a low profile. Getting too well known might get you in hot soup.

Don'ts in FYP

Opposite of the above.

Word of the Week

Kao Peh (Pronounced cow~peh/bei/beh. Verb. A word that signifies insult of one's father. E.g, "Wa lao. That si gina sibei kao peh.")

That's all for today. Feeling much better after this post.

Although I'm still pissed.

Kao peh.

Time to FYP. Time to do work. Or time to play games?

2008-09-18T23:37:00.000-07:00

Its been yet again, another... 3-4 months.

And I'm back. Perhaps if you noticed, the link has changed to the current nickname I'm using in playing games. Ah well, search for the word without the "x" on a dictionary.

Anyway, its finally the 2nd semester of the final year where I start my FYP and IPP. Currently, I'm in block L.633 doing my FYP first.

Needa separate the good stuff, bad stuff and the..... usual news.

Let's start with the usual news.

I was really expecting FYP to be damn stressful. Seriously. I still remember looking at those guys in the other path doing FYP and IPP first during my study semester and they look damn haggard.

I look at Spenser, Jocelyn and Pei Lin and they are damn stressed, not forgetting the hatred for their... "supervisor". I swear he sounded damn gey the first time I heard him speak.

Well, he has that "shine" on his head.

Everyone knows a guy with a clean head is Manly.

Well, not really every baldy.

Shit, I just said "baldy". I'll have to be more polite. Pretty bad to call people like this.

Next.

I look at Kar Kit and he's godly stressed by Mr. Heng. Didn't know my PEM was such a bitch. Oh well... Can't blame me for not knowing. Firstly, I only spoke, or perhaps saw, him once for a class matter.

And it was to collect S$4 for class chalet. Pfft.

No shit. That guy was literally ranting every piece of heart-breaking, mind-blowing insult at Kar Kit. Now I feel Mark Lim is better than Mr. Heng.

Before you guys don't know, I disliked Mark Lim for his inability to let people explain themselves. Just like that newspaper incident. This is probably the first time I've seen a person display such exquisite level of oral skills to the extent of not making a person reply the first question after he finished his third question.

Okay, that sentence was confusing. Simply to put it, he didn't give me a chance to answer his first question about a newspaper until he finished asking his third question.

Mr. Heng definitely requires a 540 turning to his head.

Back to topic. What am I doing in FYP?

Playing PSP
Playing flash games
Sleeping
Slacking
Typing reports
English error checking
Searching for information
Wikipedia
News, news and more news

Shit, I need to read my Dynagen and Dynamips configuration notes soon before I get screwed.

Now, to the bad stuff.

September's not a good month this year. And its pretty bad.

Firstly, I got whacked, whooped and injured pretty bad during the Nationals, which was 1 day before school started. Came to the first day of school in bandages and plasters.

Secondly, I failed my driving test with a whole chunk of demerits. Not confident enough, I agree. Need more practice.

Thirdly, right after the second week of school, I come 5 mins right after manual attendance was taken. Mark Lim came after that and got pretty much scolded. Luckily, I had Bear to back me up. Didn't bother to answer any of his questions to me, since I would rather not anger or irritate anyone. I was like "Ya" and "Ok". I'll just bear all this until November.

Then, he did the finishing move.

He implemented the fingerprint system.

Great. Wonderfully executed move by him. Now I got "motivation" to not fall back on the bed when I wake up at 6:15am. Thanks a lot, Technology.

Fourth, I got GPA 2.97. Kenneth gets 3. He's in director's list. I'm like, 0.03 to getting inside. Not to mention. He called me names similar to lousy and noob when I failed my driving test. And that he keeps telling me he finally beat me now.

Yay. If you're smarter then, why not...

You stop asking me how to do your SQL Server Management codings. I'm lousy in SQL anyway. I'm only good in C# programming and Visual Basic.

Pass your god damned Final Theory and try taking the TP since you think its so easy.

Nuff' said.

And finally, the whole thing that makes it even energy draining for me.

Its fasting month.

Oh well. Enough of crappy bad news. Just makes the heart heavier.

Good news!

I'm making lots of nice, good friends. L.633 is... really undefinable. Everyone's nice and friendly.

Wait. I'll rephrase that.

Everyone's so damn humourous and funny! Especially Michelle. Perhaps we should make an award for being the Best Source of Laughter in class.

No seriously. Its the laughter that gives me a lot of energy to focus and stay awake in class. It somehow provides energy even though I'm fasting.

And not to forget.

Even though my family doesn't do cakes anymore, these guys celebrated my birthday!

We all had lunch at Botak Jones and a Chocolate cream cake after that. I really felt happy on that day where the whole class could come out and eat together.

Once again,

Thank you L.633! Honto Arigato!

Now, I think I should pay an extra bit for the class fund. Perhaps we can really make it about 200 grand instead of 20 bucks.

Ok, I was joking about the 200 grand. I meant a bit more as in 2 bucks.

Now I feel like doing an ABC about L.633.

Active & Amusing - Funny class, with lots of funny stuff.
Beyond Explanation - Its one hell of a fun class to be in.
Cream of the Crop - Supposed to mean the best in the group. I'll use it for "The best in the whole FYP."

Now, I can't wait to go to school for more fun, less work and less scoldings.

Just a quick post for the hols.

2008-06-20T12:34:00.000-07:00

Ok. I'll really be a darn bastard if I stop blogging now. And I'm going to be one if I don't type anything, such as not even typing a sentence, word or a letter.

Lol.

Anyway, just for you guys out there to listen.

I'm recently, although I don't know why, back into year 2000 songs.

Oldies.

Yah I know. For some reason, they sound way better than a few of the songs I hear nowadays.

Just my 2 cents worth on a few songs nowadays.

And the song I'm listening to currently:

Fly Away From Here - Aerosmith

Lyrics
Gotta find a way
Yeah, i can't wait another day
Ain't nothin' gonna change
If we stay 'round here
Gotta do what it takes
Cuz it's all in our hands
We all make mistakes
Yeah, but it's never too late
To start again, take another breath
And say another prayer
Then fly away from here
Anywhere, yeah, i don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are
Out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly
If this life gets any harder now
It ain't ,no, never mind
You got me by your side
And any time you want
Yeah, we can catch a train and
Find a better place
Yeah, cuz we won't let nothin'
Or no one keep gettin' us down
Maybe you and i
Can pack our bags and hit the sky
And fly away from here
Anywhere, yeah i don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly
Do you see a blue sky now?
You can have a better life now
Open your eyes
Cuz no one here can ever stop us
They can try but we won't let them
No way
Maybe you and i
Can pack our bags and say goodbye
And fly away from here
Anywhere, honey, i don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Fly away from here
Yeah anywhere honey
I don't i don't i don't care
We'll just fly...

This song might sound "scream-ish" to some. But the meaning behind it and how the lyrics are sang out, are pretty interesting. The song basically is a ballad about wanting to get away or escape with a loved one.

And that's all for tonight. Night!

The final task before term tests!

2008-05-26T05:51:00.000-07:00

YOSH! Finally finished the last presentation for... erm.. this first half of the semester.

I think...

Just got a stupid report worth of 18-20 pages left to do between my team mates.

Anyway, I found a bit of time to post this. Its taken from Harold & Kumar 2 : Escape From Guantanamo Bay.

Yep, you guessed it. Its the lyrics to the poem Kumar said during the wedding. The poem he wrote in school during the flashback in the movie. And I do feel, its a pretty interesting and funny poem.
Hehe... Here goes:

I’m sure that I will always be,
a lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight?
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality
When dark ! What is this I see?
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds,
with the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued.
Your love for me has been renewed

Have fun reciting the lyrics. If you want, that is....

Anyway, back to recent events.

Played badminton with Ganesh and his freshies from 2pm to 6pm on Friday, or somewhat... 23rd of May 2008. And I had butt cramps, calf muscle aches and perhaps a more muscular forearm. That bleddy basket kept playing smacking with me for a constant 5-10 shots. Got to know a few of his freshies during that time. Like Shafiq, Kim Koon, Fook How, Yeow Hon, Jensen, Pearl, Zhi Hao, Roy, Wilson, Boon Siang, Christine, who is a friend of Pearl, and a few others that I haven't listed out? Can't find anymore memories in my brain databank of the images I saw that day. After like around 6:45pm there, Ganesh taught Pearl a few poomsae patterns. And yet again, the bleddy basket made me do 540 reverse. Then, I had back aches for the next 2 days due to that. Sparred for fun for awhile, since I haven't done light contact for some time.

After that, it was left with the seven of us, which were Ganesh, Me, Yeow Hon, Jensen, Christine, Pearl and Boon Siang. We went over to Cheers to get some drinks to get some energy back before heading over to Long John Silvers at Tampines Mall. Boon Siang and Pearl went off to look around while the remaining 5 of us ate there to fill our emptied bellies. Did I mention? We snagged a 2-seater table before this couple could sit.

The female said very loudly, "FUCK!".

Then as the both of them walked off, she stared at me like as if I had planted the world's most powerful nuclear bomb in Tampines Mall. My god, even the guy didn't say anything and she couldn't keep her mouth shut for vulgarities. They found a seat eventually though. And I was sitting there thinking, "Alright, when's the guy going to come over and do some stuff..."

Well, in the end, they didn't.

Then me and Jensen had a chat while Ganesh, Yeow Hon and Christine were having a conversation.

Anyway Jensen, don't worry too much about the term tests. The more you worry, the more you can't score. As long as you understand and know what you are writing, you're safe. As long as you are confident that you know what you are doing, you will score pretty well.

Did I mention, no one questioned about my race? Lol. I felt pretty weird. Must be due to the same old questions of, "You ARE CHINESE?!" or "KAU CAKAP CINA?!"

Oh well, that was a few years back.

After we finished, we went to find Pearl and Boon Siang at the arcade and MY GOD!

Pearl dances DAMN nice! I've never seen anyone danced that well before! Not to mention, she stunned the crowd. Including a chubby woman at the sides who was saying so loud that the machine was cake. Well, she fell silent after Pearl left the machine.

Then we slowly walked down and parted ways at the mrt station. Everyone shook hands with a special style. Then Jensen and Yeow Hon took the MRT. Pearl, Christine and Boon Siang went to the bus interchange. Me and Ganesh, walked home as usual. Then I felt my body was dismembered when I woke up at 3 am later on. Really out of energy I guess. Can't wait for this coming Friday for badminton again though.

Then the upcoming days, chionged powerpoint presentation for comm skills. Which went without much trouble.

And now, back to the report. Its like 20% done now. Back to work then!

End Of The World?

2008-05-24T12:32:00.000-07:00

Heh. I just read Eileen's recent post on her journal. Then I looked at the time and it was 3:33 am.

So I thought I might as well post something on that topic before I start a new post on the past few fun days.

Everyone's been talking about the end of the world.

And those that know me. You know I read Wikipedia when I'm bored. As in literally, bo liao until to the limit.

And I do like to read up on space and Earth topics.

So here goes.

Lets talk about the long term events. Like around a few billion years to come to Earth. I guess everyone knows, everything in the universe moves. The Solar System is in the galaxy known as the Milky Way. And that there is more than one galaxy in the whole universe.

Specifically, the Andromeda Galaxy.

Currently, the Andromeda Galaxy is on a collision course with the Milky Way with an average speed of 140 kilometres per second and an impact is expected in 3 billion years time. This merging of the two galaxies, can push our solar system to be in an eccentric, or odd, orbit that the solar system is moving now. Also, merging means that newer planets, stars and other space objects will come in contact close with the Earth.

Next, The Sun.

Perhaps not everyone, but most of us know. The Sun is existant on burning everyday. Every minute. Every second. The amount of hydrogen allows the Sun to continually combust to provide heat around. However, the amount of hydrogen, is not limitless.

In 5 billion years, stellar evolution, or the aging process of a star, which is our Sun, predicts that the Sun will exhaust its core hydrogen and turn into something we call, a Red Giant.

A Red Giant is basically, a giant luminous star that has a low or intermediate amount of mass that is in its late phase of its aging process, with nuclear fusion occurring outside the core of the Sun but not in the core itself.

When the Sun becomes a Red Giant, it expands to the size where it is big enough to engulf all of the inner planets in the Solar System. Other words, everything before the Asteroid Belt. Which includes Earth.

Before this year, studies calculated that the expansion of the Sun, would result in the Earth having a wider orbit around the Sun, such that Earth will not be engulfed by the Sun. However, recent studies show that due to tidal interaction with the Sun and Earth, it is likely that the Earth will still be swallowed by the Sun's expansion.

Well then, I guess we won't stay alive for like 3 to 5 billion years, do we?

Back to reality then.

And not to mention, I'm pretty, scared, excited and curious to see the next few events that might or will happen in the next 30 years of my life.

Perhaps some of you might have heard of Apophis 99942, a NEA, or Near Earth Asteroid, that might have caused a concern in December 2004.

The asteroid is predicted to miss Earth in the year 2029. It will then pass through a gravitional keyhole, then come back to Earth in a precise region of space of not more than 400 metres across, setting up for a future impact with the Earth in April 13, 2036. However, after recent studies, the asteroid now has a 1 in 45000 chance of impacting with Earth. But well, anything can happen right?

Another event that can happen, but with an extremely low chance. GRB, or Gamma Ray Bursts. GRBs are created when a star has collapsed and turns into a black hole. The collapsing of energy, due to the core of a rapidly rotating, high-mass star, creates so much energy, that when it becomes a black hole, it releases the energy in a burst of a high gamma ray. A burst can last from a few milliseconds to minutes. However, for a GRB to hit Earth, the GRB has to be directed to Earth. And the ray travels so fast that after a GRB of a nearby collapsed star, the GRB will strike Earth in about a few minutes time. The blast from the GRB will potentially affect the Earth's atmosphere. Not to mention, extreme exposure to civilians on its contact point.

Then now, back to the stuff that we are all familiar about. Global Warming.

10 years ago, do you still remember the temperature?
I remember it was around 26-29 degrees celsius here in 1990s. 10 years later, the temperature has jumped 2 to 4 degrees higher.

By the year 2020, the temperature might rise to near our body heat temperature, if from the measurement of a rise of 2 to 4 degrees in a decade.

Global warming can cause a lot of problems.

One, which I recently read about. Hypercanes.

Hypercanes are a stronger version of hurricanes. Hurricanes disappear once they reach landfall, which is when they cross over land. A hypercane, is an upgraded version, where they can produce wind speeds of up to 800 kilometres per hour. Hurricanes produces heat energy while they are created. Similarly, hypercanes can produce enough heat to the ocean such that it allows more hypercanes to be formed.

Well, the hypercane is a hypothetical class of a tropical cyclone.

Time for the really real deal.

It is predicted that, the ice caps on the Himalayas, will melt away by the year 2035, flooding Myanmar and countries nearby.

Read the rest on the link.

Glaciers in the Himalayas melting at a rapid rate

GOD, I'M A NERD DAMN IT!

Ah well. The only thing I'm concerned is...

Live life to the fullest. Live it just like the way you want it to be.

Remember my friendster tagline.

"One life to live it all."

Sigh, the start of practical lessons.

2008-05-22T10:43:00.000-07:00

YAY! I GOT MY PDL!! Its nice and green in colour!

And made with paper......

And perhaps later, as in literally, 23rd May 2008, I might go play badminton with Ganesh and his mina-sans.

By the way, Mina-sans means friends in japanese.

And then perhaps load up the COD 4 : Modern Warfare in his com with my hard disk.

Anyway, I guess I'm going private practical lessons. I must chiong lessons, to drive that someone, one day!

Ok.. Not only that someone, but some other important people.

Anyway, pictures time! As promised!

Kevin and Gey Joni trying to smooch. I think...

Chun and Eileen, doing... a... somewhat... interesting... pose?

A Class Pic before leaving school!

And after 2 hours of information on the Army... We finally came to the end of the NE Field Trip. Then... Its back to picture time!

Another Class pic outside the museum!

The few of us trying to catch a jump shot.

And they started to get really candid with a few funny faces.

Males in line, doing something....

Shi Qin and Chun trying for a "kiss" with the fountain between.

Yet another candid shot by the trio.

And yet in the end....

Its the smiles on the photos, that show how much we really enjoy and laugh together when we were a class, is a class.

Always have been a class together, Always will be a class together.

Call Of Duty 4 : Modern Warfare

2008-05-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

YES! After nearly 36 hours of non-stop torrent-ing, I FINALLY HAVE.....

CALL OF DUTY 4 : MODERN WARFARE!

Seriously, its pretty modern.

Call Of Duty : Finest Hour for the Xbox featured World War II, where the Axis and Allies were at war. No japs though. Just pure german soldiers.

Call Of Duty 4 : Modern Warfare, features Counter-Terrorism. We have upgrades Carbines, or M16s. We have Ak-47s with grenadiers. Shotguns with scopes? Dragonuv sniper rifles. Spectre Gunships. Helicopters. Flashbangs. Frag grenades. Remote-Controlled C4s. And perhaps the scenery of a nuclear missile.

Anyway, I woke up at 12:43 pm just to find out that the program was finally downloaded. Then i spent like 1 hour trying to find a UIF extractor for it. Bleddy guy makes my life difficult by not putting it in WinRAR format. Then I started rebuilding the whole file.

Just in case you guys don't know what is rebuilding. Rebuilding doesn't mean re-build something like a building. But in programming terms, it means to debug a program solution.

Anyway, the dang rebuilding would take 35 mins as stated in the readme file. So I went to CGH with my Dad. Waiting to see the doc for nearly 1 hour plus. And the best part, CGH always shows Channel NewsAsia on the TV. Guess what, they were showing about the country Abu Dhabi. It was a 4:33pm show till 5pm. And one thing I need to comment on. No pun intended though.

The commercial about Abu Dhabi Islamic Bank. They basically replayed that commercial like 5-6 times within that 30 mins.

Eventually, I got bored of it and for once, held LianHe ZaoBao and started reading it.

And Jet Li's helping out in the Sichuan Earthquake.

Then I finally reached home at around 6 pm plus there. And found out my lappy auto-shutdowned due to the high processing speed of rebuilding while I was out.

I had to re-extract the whole folder, then rebuild the whole program again, which wasted another 1 hour of my life.

Finally, when I could get it to work, my lappy auto-shutdowned again due to, yet again, the high processing speed from the high quality graphics of the game.

Oh wait, did I mention it auto-shutdowned like 5 to 6 times while I was playing it?

Until, I lowered the processing speed to, literally, Low. Then my lappy listened to me.

After playing like for 4 hours, my brain's full of SAS, U.S. Marines and terrorists.

Not to mention the amount of times I died while trying to return a grenade back to the enemy when the grenade exploded in my hand. Pfft.

And I'm still thinking of what to do on Friday...

PDL & Lessons, Here I Come! Money & Moolahs, Don't Fly Away!

2008-05-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

Well.. Finally, Tuesday is over.

The presentation was not really that badly done after all. Everyone was focusing on our video more than the powerpoint itself. And I saw smiles around during our video. My god, I must have looked like a clown.

Oh wait, I AM a clown.

Then Mr Leung asked me 1 question, because I was the "so-called" Project Manager in the video.

"How would you choose your project members if you were assigned a project?"

Didn't phrase my answer well. Basically said, "I would check up the members' details on their previous experiences and skills before the project starts and send them for courses before beginning on the project."

He summarized it into, "You mean, you would do planning and estimate first, before starting on the project." Or something like that.

Then the whole class gave a round of applause. Most likely for being the first group to present our slides and video.

Put it simply, WE HAVE BALLS! ( You get what I mean.)

Then after the presentation, me and Js went for the FTT test. Sadly, yet again, we're splitted. I passed and he failed.

NO FEAR JS! I'll provide you with help in my utmost power if you need it!

In fact, I fear for myself now. I need to get a PDL. And check for colour blindness.

Wait it turns out I AM COLOUR BLIND. I'm screwed then.

Then after applying for PDL, which is S$25, I have to decide on taking school practical lessons or going private lessons.

Going for school practical lessons mean I have to convert to school instead of private. That's S$100 bucks.

Every lesson costs S$72 bucks.

There's a total of 31-32 lessons to complete.

Total amount will reach around S$2000.

Its time I find a job as a gigolo.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I shall not do that kind of stuff!

One, I don't think earning money that way is... unethical and inappropriate.
Two, I don't eat soft rice.
Three, well... Three basically says, NO TO GIGOLOS!

^%$&%^^*^&%#^&@#$%&^

[Insert extremely insulting words to gigolos here.]

Anyway, my sister was like peeping at what I was typing and she was saying some godly lame riddles. Here's some to share:

In a family, everyone receives a fair share of S$10 bucks.
Guess a Singapore MRT Station name.

Answer: Commonwealth. They receive a common share of the wealth.

Why did the mushroom want to go to the party?

Answer: Because he was a fungi (fun-guy).

What did the mushroom do at the party?

Answer: He wanted to find some fungus (fun-girls).

Lame right? I know, because my legs can hardly move now.

Here we go... Yet again.

2008-05-19T03:12:00.000-07:00

BAH! WEEK 6 AND ITS PRESENTATIONS ALREADY!

#$%^&&^$#@#^&%&$^@

[Insert exclusively strong vulgarities here.]

First up. Round 1
IT3786 - IT Services & Management

I'm doing a topic on "Problems Encountered During A Project - Inappropriate & Insufficient Skills"

Guess the best part. We had to film a video of an example of this topic.

We had...

1 trial take.

5 NGs

1 Perfect take

And I made a blooper when I smiled while entering the door. Which made me look like a bleddy stalker going to kill someone.

Really funny day yesterday. But after an hour or so, we got it done. And I must say, the filming was really like a TV drama serial show.

After that, we managed to get together... 8 freaking nubbie slides. Which has to last for 10 minutes.

The video takes 1 min 45 secs. I guess we'll end around 6 mins.

We / my group, is literally, screwed.

THEN I GOT FTT TMR! Sure fail one. Never studied. Cos.... I CAN'T!!!

If tomorrow I look very du lan, means I passed. If I look very happy, means I failed.

Why the reverse effect?
Because if I pass, I have to chiong lesson. nearly 60-70 bucks per lesson, is no joke. And I'm empty on ammo now. Need to reload soon.

If I fail, no need chiong lesson. Simple logic. But have to wait till July for the next FTT. Gey.

Anyway, the 7 of us met at Starbucks again to play... Counter Strike.

@*(%^$#@%$%&#$^&

[Insert extreme words of hatred here.]

Counter Strike per every LAN game for nearly a month. I'm sick, and sick and bleddy sick of it. Luckily, We should be playing DotA soon. Like in 1 minute's time and I'm still at home looking at the gey powerpoint. Time to move. Heh.

Screwed in... various directions.

2008-05-14T11:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Didn't blog for the past... 1 week plus?

And its due to...

Homeworks...
Projects...
More homeworks...
And more projects...
Neverending pile of homeworks...
And many more neverending pile of projects...

The weeks have flown past pretty fast and its like OMFG?

Week 5.

Welcome to 1/4 semester.

Current tasks at hand:

2 formal projects to present.
1 case study to hand in this coming tuesday.
1 project charter to pass up.
Final theory test coming up.

And I mostly think the stress emanates from Communication Skills.

Because that crappy lecturer gives us homework for 2 weeks ahead. By the way, I'm finishing the Comm Skills book like in 2 weeks time.

Eff Communication Skills.

Eff Projects.

Eff Homeworks.

Can't really eff Networking.

Cause I'll be effing myself if I effed that.

Anyway, went to class late by an hour today because of the rain. I woke at 10 a.m. Just nice to make it in time for school. But I just fell back like a rock and woke up 1 hour 30 mins later. So I reached school around 1 p.m instead of 12 p.m.

But Lam lam's a good lecturer. Still let me sign attendance. Keke.

He's the reason why I'm putting interest in Networking.

Ok, that was a lame excuse. It because of something else though.

That 6 lettered word, starting with the letter F.

6 letters. Not Eff I guess.

F-U-T-U-R-E

Apparently, CCNA can't be taken outside as compared to programming. If not, I would have went programming instead.

And there was NE field trip to Army Museum today. All about Guards, Armour, Artillery, Commandoes, Signals and Infantry.

WHERE'S THE AIR FORCE?!?!?!

Never mind. I'll be the next Tony Stark and create my own army.

Oh wait. "I am an army."

Took a few nice pics and a lot of candid shots. Like how the guys were in one line, showing their groin out. Oops.. Didn't just spelt that full word out, did I? At least I didn't say something else. Hehe....

Sian. I'm heading towards the lifeless valley soon. Its plain study and computer.

NO GIRL SIAL!!!!

Heads up. 18 year old single male coming up.

LOL! I'm like super bored.

That's why you see text being typed in 1 sentence, 1 paragraph.

By the way.

Eileen, your eyecandy isn't gey. He's just weird. =X

Movies, LAN, More movies, More LAN.

2008-05-01T11:50:00.000-07:00

Shat. I'm tired and stressed.

And today is really money-spamming week.

Watched Doomsday on Wednesday. Followed by Iron Man on Thursday. And perhaps watching Harold and Kumar 2 again later on.

*Spoiler Alert*

Doomsday is a movie about a virus that struck a town in Scotland and it spreads so fast that it causes an epidemic around the whole of Britain.

Typical Resident Evil / 28 Days/Weeks Later.

Anyway, the virus is termed the "Reaper" virus. Basically, it spreads through blood and air. Anyone who contracts the virus will have sores on their faces and start vomiting blood, and some other "stuff". However, the immune are... well... IMMUNE LAR DUH!!!

Its better to watch the show for yourself though. The first few scenes are abit, scary and filled with gore / blood / [Insert bloody stuff here] scenes whereas the middle and ending parts are somewhat thrilling and added with a pinch of laughter.

Like when the gang boss, Sol, couldn't chase up to Eden Sinclair and scolds a prolonged "eff" word. Then punches his subordinate for no reason.

I'd rate this movie a 3.5/5 star.

Enough of the lousy stuff.

Iron Man is a COOL MOVIE. Though I must say. The ending was pretty, unexpected and sudden.

But the fight with the terrorists were really nicely done.

Not to mention the humourous parts when he was testing out the amount of thrust power for his jet boots.

This movie is worth 5/5 stars and every little cent in your wallet.

*End of Spoiler*

Pretty fast spoilers huh? Its because its like 3:18 am and I'm darn sleepy and lazy to type more. Not to mention I still got a bowl of Tomato Beef Stew to finish before I can sleep. Yawn.

And I request for more teamwork in Dota plezz!

Don't solo. If not, you'll get to see what I'll do to you when you ask for help.

By the way, I'm struck with a freaking skin allergy! MY GOD! My whole face is red with rashes and I got a red bindi between my eyebrows. Not to mention a "scar" on my nose. Bleddy face cream.

Allergies suck. The itch that it causes you can nearly make you want to bang a wall and knock yourself out unconscious.

Sian. Tired and nothing much to blog about. Except for that stupid Comm Skills lecturer. Tmd. 3rd week of school and she wants us to do an assignment that's 2 weeks ahead for other classes.

Bloodsucker.

At first I told Kenneth on the first day of the first lesson, "Comm Skills lecturers are good. They smile a lot, making the class very fun. Just like that Sem 2 Comm Skills Lecturer. She was really good. This one should also be very lenient."

Can't believe. "Xiao Li Cang Dao".
Or translated in english, "A dagger hidden behind that smile."

She threw 2 weeks advance homework, on the first day. Eff it. Not to mention I have to type a resume and a cover letter for her before this coming Monday. BAH!

What a waste of air and oxygen.

Oh well. I'm off to wash my bowl and turn in to get some shut eyes. Gonna be a long day later on.

EI0603. One unforgettable memory.

2008-04-29T09:15:00.000-07:00

Before I begin, this post is dedicated to everyone in EI0603, a wonderful class otherwise also known as D3, that brought nothing but fun, peace, joy and laughter everyday. This post might sound very solemn to you, but I'll try to add some humourous parts in.

Everything typed in this post will be the truth and nothing but the truth.

As I always say with my three fingers on my right hand raised,

"I cross my heart and hope to live."

EI0603, or otherwise known as D3, was the class I was assigned to be in Year 1. The first bus trip to school on the bus 72 while I was eagerly waiting to meet new peeps, new friends, forge new bonds and perhaps, build a new family.

That day at the interchange, I saw Suhendi waiting for the same bus. He was my friend in my previous secondary school. During the trip to school for the orientation, I found out he was in the same course as me. Of course, having a friend you knew already would make it easier to know more people in the same course. Little did I know that other than him, there was Geraldine, who was also from my secondary school. The surprising part was that both of them were in the same class as me too!

Me, being half-blooded, might have difficulties making new friends as some Malays speak malay to me, which I rarely have a clue about if they speak too fast, or some Chinese, who might feel weird speaking chinese to someone who looks malay. Nevertheless, I decided to try and make some friends around the malay community in my class. Slowly, I got to know Mastura, Sashayz and Hidayat.

Mastura was known for her "interestingly" funny laughter, which spread smiles to those that heard it.

Sashayz and Hidayat were known for their way of being able to mingle around with some of the other classmates we weren't that close with, yet.

Each time we had breaks, the five of us would go have lunch at the south canteen. Our class would be scattered into groups, with each and every different communities and groups spreaded around the whole campus. During the orientation, I got to also know Eileen, Kenneth, Han Xiang, Chun Hwee, Kevin Chew, Joni, Hui Hui and Kevin Loke. Though we weren't very close, but we knew each other's names for a start.

After that 3-day orientation, school started. I spent the first 2 weeks with the Mas, Shayz, Yat and Susu. Definitely, every passing day made our bonds closer and closer.

As for the lessons, C# or pronounced C sharp, was definitely one of the things I used to hate going lessons for. The lecturer, Mr Simon Yee, or how each of us would call him as Simony as his name appeared on the timetable, explained how C# worked and tried to teach the codes to us.

Didn't know about the others, but I knew I definitely had a hard time understanding what the hell he was talking every single lesson.

One example was during the lessons, I kept hearing "Console.Writeline" and "Console.Readline".

Of course, I had no background knowledge on C# and I guess not everyone in class had that too. Sitting at the back with Susu, we were like playing flash games on the PC almost every lesson. Until when a C# project was assigned to class to do in groups of 2.

During the times in class, I tried to break the ice between Xiao Wei and the rest of their clique by approaching Geraldine often for help in understanding C#. Not to mention, I also approached Kenneth and Ken during that week. As I expected, no one understood what the lecturer was talking as the codes he was saying were like alien language to me. I got curious as to how I was going to complete the first semester if I couldn't do something that I was interested in.

I plugged in my 128mb thumbdrive and copied all the contents of that module into it. During the days, I spent around 2 hours everyday trying to understand what was C# and how the program worked.

The next week, I finally understood not only "Console.WriteLine" and "Console.ReadLine", but also what he was saying during the whole lab session. Of course, my foundation of logic was still not that good yet. I asked around for help and advice, learning not only more about C#, but also improving my friendship with some people in the class.

During week 6 to week 8, we had a new student that joined our class. I'd never knew this guy would be one of my best buddies that helped me out in need. Jie Sheng was 2 years older than me as he graduated from ITE. I noticed him the first time sitting on the stairs in a lecture. Then I gradually approached him during class. In the end, he gradually became our friend.

We also had another new student that joined our class. Shi Qin was from Taiwan. But he had no accent of it whatsoever. Really great guy to talk with. Lots of jokes and laughters.

By week 9 to the end of the semester, I had known the whole class. I also hung out more often with the chinese people, which consisted of Kenneth, Joni, Kevin Chew, Jie Sheng, Shi Qin, Chun Hwee, Han Xiang, Eileen, Hui Hui and Kevin Loke. By then, we weren't the usual silent group that didn't talk much, but the group that made the most laughters around.

I also got to know Ken, Jing Rong and Jun Hao during that time. Me and Ken used to share ideas on how this particular program could be done.

Of course, C# wasn't the only lesson that improved our bonds and relationships. The Computing Maths tutorial was really a fun time to get to know each other. My E-Maths was seriously total crap in secondary school. In Computing Maths, we studied A-Maths, which was even worse. But each of us taught each other on how to do the various questions and equations, not to mention some bits of copying.

Slowly and gradually, the first semester passed. I felt happy to get a starting grade of GPA 3.071 even though I didn't fully understand all of the topics.

But I knew for sure, it wasn't the GPA that made me really happy, but the new friends that I just made that made school compulsory to attend everyday.

"I go to school not to study hard, but to talk more and play hard."

By the second semester, we learnt about the basic fundamentals of networking by using programs such as Packet Tracer and Ethereal.

Our friendship became a family. No more groupings or communities. We were FFA, or free for all. This semester, I played really hard. Every 4 hour break that we had would mean either walking around in Ang Mo Kio, playing pool at Grassroots, the LAN centre at Tenchi Comics or Raiders and the arcade centres.

On the fact that the fundamentals of networking was somewhat, a rather hard-to-understand topic because of its confusing nature in configuring IP addresses, we questioned each other everyday on how to do a question in this module. Of course, I had only interest in programming and nothing else. Didn't really bother to read up on it till Week 14 to 15 where the semestral exams were nearing.

We managed to slip past that module and go on to the next semester. My grades did drop, but not by a huge margin.

In Year 2, semester 1, we would help each other if we did not understand on how to do this question of a particular module. We were already more than just friends, but a real family.

Every lesson in class would be filled with chitter-chatters and laughters.

I could remember how Eileen would keep nagging to me about how "interesting" her french teacher was.

I could remember how I finished Chun Hwee's C# project and the lecturer still found out in the end.

I could remember nearly every bit of all the fun we had together.

Year 2 semester 2.
The last semester to Year 3.

Networking became a tough obstacle for us. Mostly due to the new lecturer from a University.

Visual Basic was hard for some to cope. Due to the harsh environment. Someone cried in class because of the way the lecturer replied her question. I shan't mention who though.

The System Application And Control Project was one of the hardest projects ever to date to do. The specifications were simply, confusing. The codes were not fully given to us. I learnt how to get codes, the hard way. That is, by taking one of Jie Sheng's friend's program and spending 1 night reading his near 10 page long coding just for a single function.

Database Management was really the module that nearly delivered the finishing blow to me. Due to time constraints in dealing with the System Application And Control Project submission date, I spent and burnt the midnight oil, literally, doing out a database and a program for the Database project to be handed up on the following day. Simply put it, I chiong-ed a 15 week project in 14 hours non-stop. I got knocked out on the bus back home later on.

Networking project presentation was simple enough. My group, otherwise also known as the "Dream Team", had to do on the various internet protocols, DNS, DHCP, WINS and NAT. Each one in the team just researched on one topic and we placed the information together like a simple jigsaw puzzle. One of the presentations I've had so far that went with a breeze.

And now, back to the present.

A few of us have broken up into different paths.
Eileen, Chun Hwee, Han Xiang, Joni and Kevin Chew went into Integrated Logistics.
Mastura, Sashayz, Hidayat, Jing Rong and Shi Qin went into Programming.
Me, Jie Sheng, Kenneth, Ken and Geraldine went into Networking.

Even though we are separated into different classes, we still meet up sometimes while walking around in school, have lunch together like the old times and other stuffs like that.

For me, I feel its so hard to make new friends in the new Networking class. I just feel that D3 is enough for me.

The times, fun, jokes, riddles, laughter, troubles, obstacles and all we've faced in the past 2 years and 3 weeks are really, literally unforgettable.

We might not have anyone in our class in the top 10% of the cohort every semester, and literally EVERY semester, but I dare say the amount of dependence on each other we've had before makes our friendship stronger than the few other classes.

And I'm not shy to say this thought I've had since Year 1:

"I want to graduate together with you guys!"

A way to spend the night class, in another way.

2008-04-29T03:38:00.000-07:00

This... is... so.... borranngg!!!

Currently, today's night class involves the use of the program, CitectSKADA. Simply to put it, its another type of program that allows you to virtually create machinery and how they run in a program. One example is like the machines that allow the brewing of beer.

And I'm definitely not listen to what he's saying now.

Because I know I'll just die sleeping if I listen to that "lullaby".

Ok, he's going over what we did last week now...

OMG ITS SOMETHING NEW!! But still gonna be boring.

Zzzzz. The only thing I dislike about slow talking lecturers. They got this super skill called "Lullaby". The speed at which they speak is godly slow to the point, the workstation infront of me looks like my bed.

Anything from the start of this post till now, was typed in class. Which then I specifically and specially tried to pry my eyes open with toothpicks to stay away and finish the practical. Now my eyes are O.O.

From this point onwards, this is typed at my home laptop. Which I still want to sleep, but the Queen Eileen wants me to blog more. However, I've decided to do a double post. So that's all for tonight's night class!

Routers, Switches, Servers, PCs, Hosts. And a bit of Comm skills.

2008-04-28T07:34:00.000-07:00

DAMN IT!

Can't believe... I got class tomorrow.
Well... Everyone has classes tomorrow...

What I meant was...
I cannot believe, I have classes from 8:30 am to 9:30 pm !!!

HELLO?!?!?! LABOUR DAY IS COMING?
And I still get tortured like this.

The best part though, is that I actually have classes from 10 am to 6 pm normally on Tuesday. With a 2 hour tutorial from 10 to 12. Followed by a gey 4 hour break, just for some stupid 2 hour lecture from 4 to 6.

Of course, the class petitioned for a new timetable. And the management shifted the lecture to start at 1 pm and end at 3 pm.

Great relief and lesser waste of humane time.

Then because of Labour Day on Thursday, my night class, which was actually on Thursdays, is shifted down to Tuesdays just for this week.

So my night class starts at 6:40 pm tomorrow. So yet again, another near 4 hour break from 3 pm to 6:40 pm.

Sucks.

Schools really have their ways of twisting the timetable.

Not to mention I need to type out a resume for Comm Skills, and finish up Networking Project & Case Study 3 before the end of this week.

Work is piling up like how a person with diarrhoea releases his bowels in the toilet bowl.

Ok... that was.. not really... very describing. But, you get the point.

Nana just went back for jungle warfare yesterday. Had a LAN session of CS before we sent him off at Pasir Ris. Friendly Fire was turned on and I cannot explain how FUN it was!

1 Arctic Magnum Sniper Rifle shot at your team mates would definitely be "fun". Although playing in those night maps did cause a bit of.. casualties. Good training of teamwork! Even though I would have preferred Dota for training of teamwork. It's like 1-2 months since I last played. I'm becoming nubbie gradually. Its like CS everytime we go LAN.

Not to mention I'm sick and tired of B11, B13, B16, B33, B41, B42, B43, B44, B45, B46, O2, O3, O4 and O5. Not forgetting the rapid pressing of the "," and "." keys for ammo.

I need to do double kills, some triple kills and a bit of being godlike!
(I'm still nub though. You'll most probby pawn my head for a few 10 grand of gold.)

I NEED TO LAN SOME DOTA!! PLEASE CALL ME OUT FOR MORE DOTA AND LESS CS!!!

Well then, back to another boring part of the topic.

I guess not many people know what I do in school now. With the exception of :

Walking around.
Looking at girls. (O.O Should have kept that secret. >.<)
Getting free air-con.
Eat, drink and slack in lectures.
Jokes, more jokes and even more jokes.
Riddles, more riddles and even more riddles.
Just plain walking around.
Still walking around.

For those that don't know, I'm doing Networking and Security. You know. Routers, switches, servers and those stuff. Speaking of which, I just finished a mock test question using this program, called Packet Tracer.

Apparently, this program is... the one and only program I'll be using this semester, except:

Windows Live Messenger
Mozilla Firefox
Internet Explorer
Microsoft Word
Microsoft Powerpoint
Adobe Acrobat Reader
CitectSKADA

Yeah. That's about it. I did feel it would be nice to understand what Haziq does when he has "Wacomming".

Heck, I don't even know what's that.

Basically, this program creates a virtual view of how a connection in a company would look like, to your liking / standards / requirements.

One example of how a completed network would look:
In the picture, the round objects are the routers, the cubes are switches, the long retangular box is the server and the computers are... Well, computers. DUH!

And to summarize what codings are done inside, here are a few pics.

When all stuff goes well, the routers tell you that a specific protocol is up and running as highlighted.

And the best part that you get at the end, is when the various PCs can successfully ping with each other.

And there you have it. Your brief tutorial on Packet Tracer!

How gey though. I'll get some alive and kicking pictures soon. Which is when someone gets me, or fund me a Canon D40 camera.

Back For More.... Blogging?!

2008-04-25T11:56:00.000-07:00

ni yao li kai
你要离开
wo zhi dao hen jian dan
我知道很简单
ni shuo yi lai
你说依赖
shi wo men de zu ai
是我们的阻碍
jiu suan fang kai
就算放开
dan neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai
但能不能别没收我的爱
dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai
当作我最後才明白

Yet another song to continue... and... WHAT THE HELL?! Is it my sub-consciousness or my split personality that's forcing me back on blogger?

Ok fine. Its me. After like.... a few months?

No? How about 2 years?

Ok you win. Its been... 4 years since I last blogged! WOW! I'm impressed.

After reading on various blogs / livejournals, I decided to remake a blog again. Don't really know the reason though.

"And the reason is youuuuuuu~"

Crap. Still, its like 3 am and I cannot believe I'm typing this post instead of just laying some shut eyes. Well... I guess I need to give a summary of the past 4 years right? (Hell yeah, this is gonna be one hell long of a post.)

I guess you guys are wondering why my link is called the-living-potato. Because, I'm a couch potato. HAHA!! And I'm living. Extreme lameness. Yesh I know.

Since where I stopped, which was around secondary 4, which was O levels. Then I went to a polytechnic. And I really feel that macdonald's quote is pretty useful at times. The course that I'm taking is really "I'm Lovin' It".

Well, its programming. Who doesn't?

*Points at health & life sciences, business and design school people*

Except engineering people, cos they still study a bit of programming.

Not too much but a little at the design people, cos they might use programming for their drawings.

Back to topic.
Over the years, I've met new poly friends.
Very good, fun, nice, interesting, humourous, trustable, [Fill in good comments/remarks here] friends.
And yes, only those poly friends. No newer, no freshies.

Why you might ask?

Cause I'm an anti-social bastard who has no friends. YEAH RIGHT.

Its because, I'm too shy to make friends. Too lazy to sign up for OGLs and stuff like that. And, I always do things in pairs or more. Solo-ing sometimes gets a bit rough. But, once I get to know you, Good luck.

But, each time I look at Nesh's friendster pictures, it reminds me of pamphlets from TP. Cos, they really look like pics from there. Then I look at myself. And I say, WTF?

Oh well, for you guys who don't know till now, I study at Nanyang Polytechnic. Yep. Its around a few 10 or 50 kilometres to school everyday. Bus 72 rocks, 969 rocks only if it reaches when I'm at the interchange. Otherwise, it sucks. And it has never reached when I'm at the interchange. Therefore, 969, you officially suck.

Still, school's too far for me to even do "fun" stuff. Even though Nave did persuade me to join OGL, he didn't go in the end. =.='''

So, its been a fun 2 years and 2 weeks till today. I chose Networking as my path for my final year. And its pretty interesting and hard, judging from the fact that my previous semester lecturer only said this 2 words in every practical.

"Keep Typing."

Hell yeah. I guess I learnt 2 words for that whole semester from him. Still, I'm struggling to manage the stuff of configuring routers, switchs, servers and stuff like that. But the main reason I chose that path is... Hacking!

Yesh! DoS attacks, Smurf Attacks and those interesting items. I'm not gonna hack you anyway. Don't fear me! I'm still nub at this. =P

And its for a better "internet" online entertainment. Each time I search for a private server or some stuff, there are bound to be some stuff like :
Popups.
Adverts.
Spyware.
Those other harmful stuff.

So, its just for my own use.

Enough about school talk. School sucks, only on thursdays, that is.
Poly life, is way different from secondary school. Other than the uniform crap. Those friends I have there are really wayy too wacky. And when the project submission dates are nearing, we really start the teamwork. And during breaks, its just jokes, jokes and more jokes. Not to mention that large amount of vulgarities and hokkien slang I've learnt. No offence, its just for understanding what people scold nowadays. ^^

And you do realise, the amount of stuff I talk about school is longer than the amount of stuff I talk about my friends. Because, they can't be explained by words. Its the memories that I have of them, that can truly express who they really are. Or simply to say, "Fun".

Back to the Circle.
Nana's off to camp! Good luck recruit!
He just finished 2 weeks of his BMT and he's going for Jungle Warfare the end of this week again. That's another 2 weeks to miss him. Heh! But seriously, he's blacker than before. And that tanned colour is better than Sentosa's sun. From this we can equate:

Tekong Sun > Sentosa Sun
Tekong Sun provides a nice brownish tan, while Sentosa Sun provides, a nice red swelling body for skin to peel like a lemon's skin. Not to mention skin cancer.

The rest of us are just school, school and more school. 3rd year really bo pian but to study. But, we don't miss the occasional LAN gaming and stuff. I have to say... Charles and Nave improved at CS. Don't get too cocky yet. You still got Dota to go.

Haziq's just plain working, schooling, sleeping, eating and being a human.

Joel's is just plain working out, running, jogging, exercising, gymming, proteining, buffing, and definitely, schooling. Good luck for your IPPT!

Ganesh is probably having fun at school being OGL and doing his FYP. 9 to 5 is really... nice timing. Hehe! You don't have attachments outside though. Lucky bastard.

Me? I'm just sitting in front of either the school's computer everyday typing codes, codes, more codes, and even more codes, and way lot more codes to go; or just sitting in front of my lappy, doing the same thing I do at school.

With the exception of playing games and MSN and watching kamen rider kiva and bleach.

That's all for what's currently happening. Unless you want me to dig deeper, I'll have to write a new dictionary or perhaps, make a new movie called "Khalis' Life". You're gonna sleep on the first few chapters though.

Somehow, each time I go out.
Or walk around.
Or just plain slacking.

Can't help to notice couples, families everywhere.
And the only thing I've been missing out in these past 18 years.
Love.

Flashback from Hi-5?
"L-O-V-E! I love you and you love meeeee~"
Gey show.

Each time I see a couple, I smile. Don't know why, but its good to see happy couples together. Kinda cheers me up. Of course, I do get a bit jealous.

Can't help it. I somehow feel its hard to ask a number.
And its really funny sometimes to ask numbers from a girl.
Question is... What you gonna do with the number after that?
Comments please!

I'd prefer someone you know for like a few weeks or months before trying a shot at it.
But of course, I know I don't mingle much. So I'll take both options.
And I just realized. I need a reason to do anything and everything.
Then when I ask myself, "Do I need a reason to love someone?"

My mind went blank. No answers. Nada. Zip.

Haziq tells me. "NO!"
And I get laughed at for being single for 9 years. T.T (We don't count the first 10 years. Cause if you do, I'd be finding my soul partner in the maternity ward.)

But I do want to do one thing.
That is to protect everyone I love or care about.